Alexander Nicholi
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- Seen Feb 14, 2024
It's about time I get this out. It's just too much keeping it all cooped up in my mind.
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Am I infatuated, or is this love? ...I hope I know for sure.
Such a beautiful girl, I know in high school... The teenage dream if there ever was one. I wish to mention her name here, since it's so hard referring to her as her. For her sake though, her last name shall remain a mystery. And no, she's not on Facebook. ;)
D e v a n . . .
That beautiful name rings in my head, every single day... all through Thanksgiving break I wish I was at school, to see her. She was the only one to initiate a comment about my glasses being missing today. She isn't only beatiful physically. Her personality is the sweetest, most giving thing you could imagine. Her best friend since they were 6 is inseperable from her, and she has an Asian boyfriend who's the most gorgeous and nicest guy you could meet.
The problem is, she's moving away... next year, with her d-bag of a boyfriend.
About that... over the past few months I've known her, I've seen the behavior between the two of them and me. Within the first week I met her I was already sitting next to her all of sixth period. In the third week I knew her, I hung out for an hour after school since she loves band, which is where I met her BFF's boyfriend. After meeting Devan's boyfriend, I sat there near the locker for a half an hour - though she kept asking me what's wrong. Promising she wouldn't tell anyone, I let her guess, and it didn't take long. She was taken.
Still, that didn't matter to me. I promised myself I would find a way to make her come to me.
While getting to know her, I hear more about her boyfriend. As it turns out, she was in the submissive role of a controlling relationship. How do you think I like that? I don't - she deserves better than that. I'm just... afraid he might be doing something to force her into submission... or threatening to do something to her. That would be... the worst.
On top of all this, I have a supposed 'date' (if you could call it that) to watch the second annual A Christmas Chaos at our local army base. Next Friday and Saturday are the last performances, and I really want her to see it. In spite of this, I see her wanting to spend the weekend with her boyfriend than watch this once a year play that we could only see together once in a lifetime. That's right, she's got the whole Christmas break to hang around and do nothing with him, and won't consider this rare opportunity to spend a night with someone else.
I don't know what to do... Should I remind her on Thursday that she needs to come, or forget it and expect her to say that "something came up" and blow me off, just like those two weeks she said she wasn't attending band, only for me to come last Thursday to see her pinned to the wall by - guess who - her fricking boyfriend?
.
.
.
Am I infatuated, or is this love? ...I hope I know for sure.
Such a beautiful girl, I know in high school... The teenage dream if there ever was one. I wish to mention her name here, since it's so hard referring to her as her. For her sake though, her last name shall remain a mystery. And no, she's not on Facebook. ;)
D e v a n . . .
That beautiful name rings in my head, every single day... all through Thanksgiving break I wish I was at school, to see her. She was the only one to initiate a comment about my glasses being missing today. She isn't only beatiful physically. Her personality is the sweetest, most giving thing you could imagine. Her best friend since they were 6 is inseperable from her, and she has an Asian boyfriend who's the most gorgeous and nicest guy you could meet.
The problem is, she's moving away... next year, with her d-bag of a boyfriend.
About that... over the past few months I've known her, I've seen the behavior between the two of them and me. Within the first week I met her I was already sitting next to her all of sixth period. In the third week I knew her, I hung out for an hour after school since she loves band, which is where I met her BFF's boyfriend. After meeting Devan's boyfriend, I sat there near the locker for a half an hour - though she kept asking me what's wrong. Promising she wouldn't tell anyone, I let her guess, and it didn't take long. She was taken.
Still, that didn't matter to me. I promised myself I would find a way to make her come to me.
While getting to know her, I hear more about her boyfriend. As it turns out, she was in the submissive role of a controlling relationship. How do you think I like that? I don't - she deserves better than that. I'm just... afraid he might be doing something to force her into submission... or threatening to do something to her. That would be... the worst.
On top of all this, I have a supposed 'date' (if you could call it that) to watch the second annual A Christmas Chaos at our local army base. Next Friday and Saturday are the last performances, and I really want her to see it. In spite of this, I see her wanting to spend the weekend with her boyfriend than watch this once a year play that we could only see together once in a lifetime. That's right, she's got the whole Christmas break to hang around and do nothing with him, and won't consider this rare opportunity to spend a night with someone else.
I don't know what to do... Should I remind her on Thursday that she needs to come, or forget it and expect her to say that "something came up" and blow me off, just like those two weeks she said she wasn't attending band, only for me to come last Thursday to see her pinned to the wall by - guess who - her fricking boyfriend?