I've been debating whether or not to post here since this thread's creation, over-analyzing things as I always seem to. Whatever, here goes.
What is your sexuality? I am attracted to women. I'm a... uh... "lesbian." Though I was always a little conflicted with that label because people always seemed to use it in that awful tone of voice, as an insult or something.
Why do you feel you identify with it more than others? It's very simple. I've never been able to have more than platonic feelings for guys. But I've fallen hard for girls at several points in my life.
How long have you know you are that sexuality (or sexualities)? I was a very sheltered child growing up, and didn't even know homosexuality existed until some other kids in junior high accused me of being a lesbian. I don't even remember why... maybe I was too cuddly with a female friend? I was like "What's a lesbian? Some kind space alien?" I hadn't developed any romantic/sexual feelings yet at the time... but from what people said about girls liking girls, I could tell it was something not approved by others. But I definitely knew I was gay when at 15 years old.
Do you ever run into problems being what you are at times? Well, after all these years, I'm still not out to anybody I know... save for my mother and a single trusted friend. Throughout high school I was often anxious about how things may change if people found out. Back then I payed way too much attention to how I could be perceived by others and was also highly susceptible to succumbing to peer pressure. I even tried dating a guy that liked me for a short while because my friends and family thought it would be a good idea. It was mentally/emotionally exhausting and I couldn't stand to lie to myself and others, so I broke it off and decided that listening to my heart is best. Uh... other than that, I guess there's just those bouts of loneliness every once in a while, wondering how/where I can meet potential partners. There's also guys that still crush on me and because of that it's been quite difficult to forge platonic friendships with single straight guys irl. Mother says I should try being more honest with people... but honestly what else do they gotta know if I reject 'em? "I just don't like you in that way." They don't need to know why exactly...