Haha, "not all of us". Well, I can guess the one who probably does. And it's pretty mutual.
I just felt overwhelmed, unwelcome and really at the whims of what I considered cherry-picking issues to GET me banned. I got another infraction for almost nothing, I thought, so I was afraid to post out of fear of literally *anything* being misconstrued to really tie the knot.
I needed a break in any case, but I originally wasn't even going to return at all until at least one of the infractions finally did expire; which was October 29. And I honestly thought I would be banned inbetween there too, literally for not even posting or being here.
And the break was good; but my wonderful girlfriend always knows how to relax me and get me into a better mood about approaching these issues.
I had a bit of a trial with her in that time as well, and after that, I found a newfound confidence to come back, knowing I wouldn't be the same and hopefully the same kind of trouble wouldn't occur.
I mean, I'm not going to just declaw myself or go docile; we should all be allowed to voice our opinions, even if they're not popular; but I think now I can do it with more finesse. Because text is just that, it can be very easy to misconstrue what we write as something else entirely.
I needed to work on that anyway, so I came back.
I have talked with some admins too in the meantime and come to an understanding (eventually) with them as well, but I know some of them probably dislike me, along with some mods. But hey, that's why there are more than just 2 of them.
Still, I sure wish being able to ignore some people you just don't like (mod or admin alike) would sure help... but I guess that's just a test of mettle to show that you can take it; that I can take it and still be civil.