Yeah, gotta keep positive at the places that make you happy :) One day your dream will come true, for now things are tough but you're not like 60, you've got ages to go before you can give up, and even so, you can write at ANY age, you'll never really be limited by anything but time, and one day you will have time on your side if you have the drive to make it a reality, and a little bit of luck :)