Yes.
When I was growing up, in school, I didn't have many friends. And the friends that I did have weren't very nice for the most part. I constantly was put down; but really who wasn't bullied when they were young, right? I think my experience just stuck with me.
Some of the harsh things I was told by those who I loved included "You deserve to be shot dead" (which prompted a suicide attempt, actually.) And when calling a friend needing help after the incident was then told "You know I don't like phones" and immediately hung up on. And then reaching out to someone else ended with "Maybe if you weren't so fat and ugly people would like you better."
Harsh words on repeat x10 every day.
Fast forward to my mid 20s, living on my own in another country, doing well for myself but each year my anxiety and depression getting worse every day. Every day I'd cry myself to sleep. I'd have panic attacks over little things that didn't make any sense. I felt absolutely stuck, helpless and like something was wrong. I even developed anorexia, I think it must've been to have something to control, or maybe it was a silent cry for help.
Anyway, I decided not to feel sorry for myself. I sought out therapy, and luckily I had private healthcare. I saw an amazing psychologist and worked extremely hard on my negative thinking patterns. I kept a journal and wrote down all of the worrying thoughts I had and how to turn them into good thoughts. I fought with "catastrophizing" and my "black and white thinking" and slowly began to see the grey.
I worked on my diet- choosing to nourish myself with healthy foods. I worked on being kind to myself, noticing when I'd put myself down. I worked on opening up more to people, realizing that more people in the world actually want to help instead of harm. I raised my standards and overcame the fear of asking. I tried new things, like meditation and yoga. I began to be braver and more spontaneous, even taking a trip to Japan by myself last year.
Therapy started 3 years ago, but ended 2 years ago. Now I'm 27. My anxiety and depression are gone.
I do still have my moments from time to time, but they are rare. I still have some health issues to battle with that came from stress-overload (endocrine system) and malnourishment to my body. I am focusing now on nourishing myself, and being happy with who I am. I am beginning to believe that I am enough just the way I am now.
It's a journey, but it's worth taking. And my biggest point to remember for myself is to appreciate where I am now, instead of ridiculing myself for only having gone a small way to where I want to be.
I encourage everyone just to take a small step. Change doesn't have to be hard. And think about where you are now. What are you willing to tolerate? I'm not willing to tolerate being unhappy and self-critical any longer.
Oh and I also reversed a brain (pituitary) tumor. But I'll save that story for another time.