I was so close to dying so much that I don't even think I'm scared of dying anymore, even before the times I almost died,
but seeing that I am not dead means that I am not supposed to die just yet, after all a lot of people go by without ever being
remembered, people are dying every moment and you don't even know who they are or who they were, but that just means that
while you are still alive you need to be able to do something for you to be remembered for, and to make the most of it while you can.