Autism, Aspergers syndrome etc.

[Soul Eater]

Well, I take a stimulant medication that does help me focus more. It helps control some of the more impulsive-hyperactive behaviors.

 

[Tinhead Bruce]

Yeah. I'm just on Ritalin for now. We'll see if it works.

 

[Zeta Sukuna]

This thread... reminds me of one time when I was in ACE. Before I tell you the story, I will tell you that I have Minor Autism, and it took a big whack at how I speak. I can speak fine, but I have to really watch what I say. I also have the outbursts. They are major outbursts, I never get minor ones.

Anyway, I said the wrong thing, and everyone laughed at me. I got so mad, that I wanted to harm, or even kill everyone in there... And I was about to attack, when the teacher was able to calm me down. In the state I was in, I probably could have actually done some damage, and gotten arrested. The teacher explained to the entire class what happened. In actuallity, my own worst enemy is myself. If I were to let down my guard, then I would probably end up attacking someone... again.

I also have problems with loud sounds, I always have to cover my ears. I can't type the way you are taught in school at all, no matter how hard I try, and how long I practice, I just can't do it. But my writing is phonominal. If I were to take an IQ test, I would be labeled as 130+, I forgot what I had when I last checked, but when the school tested me to see how 'advanced' I was, a lot of things I scored an 18.0 grade level(Master Degree Graduate) And this was when I was in middle school last year.

I can't eat most fruits, or vegetables with the exception of bananas, or my gag reflex will act up.

I was actually told I had autism when I was in the sixth grade. I could barely speak much until I was four, then I started picking up my vocabulary easily.

I have trouble with processing emotions well, to other people, it seems I have none, unless I get lucky and am given an oppertinity to act it out with basic ones, or have a lot of sugar and am hyper, oh, and I am also anti-social.

Let me think... I have a friend with ADD, one with ADHD, and ADD, and I believe I have two with Aspergers, or some form of autism, anyway. And... yeah, that's it... four friends, five if you count my brother.

I hope I worded this right, as I am not sure. But it feels better to get it out.

 

[Tinhead Bruce]

I get the worst outbursts as well. I'll just yell at someone for no real reason. AT my old school I was labeled anything and everything you could label someone. A racist, a bigot, a masochist.

I need to point out that I am more aware of, and advocate more for the various civil rights movements going on than many of my schoolmates ever will (be). I am in no way racist, or any type of -ist. I just get angry sometimes, and people take it as a slam against a certain culture.

I hate my brain and mouth so much sometimes.

 

[Zeta Sukuna]

Do you end up actually physically hurting them, trying to stab them with something, yelling out "I will kill you!"? Just because the kid who was the victim, who was always annoying me said.

"Yeah, we have to work together, or you'll fail." Of course he said it like a taunt, but still... The teacher had to pair me up with the two people, guarenteed(sp?) to make me mad.

Yeah... But I think it was for the best, I am able to control my anger a lot better then I was then. The kid wasn't hurt, and by the time I got out of ACE, he was in another class, due to a schedule change. I think, that day, I scared my classmates so much, for when they laughed at the look on the kids face, and I took it the wrong way, and basically threatened the whole class, everyone just shut up. But yeah... I can control myself a lot better now.

 

[Amaruuk]

Poke: A school did that for me too, ran a life skills program. I hated it because they always nitpicked me and actually caused me to have more crying spells and anxiety attacks, basically not understanding why I was disabled in the first place. I ended up leaving it and graduating when I was supposed to.

My parents took me out of the college prep school and put me in a "special kid" school when I began high school. I have to say the teachers at the college prep school were much better equipped to deal with Asperger's than the ones at the "special" school. The latter seemed to be trained exlusively to teach and deal with ADHD and things like dyslexia, but apparently not Asperger's or Manic-Depression. I was lumped with the rest of them even though Asperger's is clearly not ADHD, and the structures required to teach or manage them are completely different, if not opposite. I'm a pretty autonomous learner. Extra structure is completely unnecessary and stressful. The teachers weren't as understanding, either. Having breakdowns and crying under tables in class ensued.

This thread... reminds me of one time when I was in ACE. Before I tell you the story, I will tell you that I have Minor Autism, and it took a big whack at how I speak. I can speak fine, but I have to really watch what I say. I also have the outbursts. They are major outbursts, I never get minor ones.

Anyway, I said the wrong thing, and everyone laughed at me. I got so mad, that I wanted to harm, or even kill everyone in there... And I was about to attack, when the teacher was able to calm me down. In the state I was in, I probably could have actually done some damage, and gotten arrested. The teacher explained to the entire class what happened. In actuallity, my own worst enemy is myself. If I were to let down my guard, then I would probably end up attacking someone... again.

I also have problems with loud sounds, I always have to cover my ears. I can't type the way you are taught in school at all, no matter how hard I try, and how long I practice, I just can't do it. But my writing is phonominal. If I were to take an IQ test, I would be labeled as 130+, I forgot what I had when I last checked, but when the school tested me to see how 'advanced' I was, a lot of things I scored an 18.0 grade level(Master Degree Graduate) And this was when I was in middle school last year.

I can't eat most fruits, or vegetables with the exception of bananas, or my gag reflex will act up.

I was actually told I had autism when I was in the sixth grade. I could barely speak much until I was four, then I started picking up my vocabulary easily.

I have trouble with processing emotions well, to other people, it seems I have none, unless I get lucky and am given an oppertinity to act it out with basic ones, or have a lot of sugar and am hyper, oh, and I am also anti-social.

Let me think... I have a friend with ADD, one with ADHD, and ADD, and I believe I have two with Aspergers, or some form of autism, anyway. And... yeah, that's it... four friends, five if you count my brother.

I hope I worded this right, as I am not sure. But it feels better to get it out.

Welcome to the thread! Everyone deserves to get these things out :3

Glad to know I'm not the only one who's so severely affected by the gag-reflex curse. Even among other Aspies, it's not a common trait as far as I've seen.

 

[Soul Eater]

I think the only REAL outburst I had was because my stupid LSC teacher.

See, there was this one time we were playing a game, okay? Well, anyway it got out of hand and she came in and got really pissed at us. She was yelling and everything, telling us she would teach us like the school kids were acting.

Well, me and this girl, who had down syndrome, we both eventually went to the table and we were so upset we cried, she tried to but really didn't. I did cry and she freaking yelled at me to the point where I just exploded with tears I mean god...I was melting down.

Also, there was another time when I got pissed at the teachers and aids. I was mad because at first, they knew I had shoulder problems and I was under doctor's care. Anyway, they made me do all this extra work I wasn't supposed to.

I got mad and then they forced me to read when I didnt want to. They put me in this timeout and then I started to cry because they were putting me down, saying I was being punished and I felt like terrible crap.

I go into the room with the best aide, named Jay and I told him what happened, Bonnie, the *****, comes in and tells him not to baby me and whatever and I just flat out cried right there.

I usually have outbursts when i get pushed over my limits. Something they always did. See, I have the reading and spelling level of a college student but I can't read out loud. I think because I suck at public speaking and having to read in front of people makes me stutter and stuff.

So I didn't want to read and they punished me for it. Man, was my mom pissed. She KNEW I hated that class.

She even got as far as calling TWO principals to talk to the teacher. The teacher did not like it at all.

I am a very emotional person if pushed over the edge. You do not want to get my upset because you'll get on my bad side and it lets me feel like I can't trust you.

All my life, i've been mistreated, kicked and pushed around. Everyone had always considered me a total troublemaker, a retard. It tore me to shreds. I was teased ever since kindergarten but that made me stronger.

Things like punishment and yelling make me cry and sometimes too much yelling makes me meltdown to shreds.

This song pretty much explains my life. In and out. I consider it as my life song because people just don't understand me and they wonder why I can't show any trust or interaction.

 

[THIRTY-SIX]

Still haven't gotten around to reading everyone's posts, I'll get to them eventually.

Just have to say that song also partly describes me as well, though songs nowadays go for a large scale generalisation. I mean there are a lot of people with the same fears and junk to deal with. It's how you deal with it that makes us unique.
As you can see I open up even less than most others that have posted here. .o.

 

[NoBel_ToKYo ™]

Wow...XD So many replies i have to make up for! :P

I'm reading a book at the moment called curious incident of the dog or something like that, it's about a boy with autism, well that book really puts things into another perspective.

I've read that! ^^ It's a very good book.

I used to have these sort of "breakdowns". where i just couldn't deal with anything once somebody had set me off. My new councillor at the time helped me around it though, i was extremely sensitive..Even more so to things out of my comfort zone.

Overall, it's great to see this thread pick up like this ^__^

 

[The Exorcist]

I made this thread earlier...

Anyway, I have a mild cause of Asperger's Syndrome, I'm not as affected as heavily autistic people, back in Primary school I had someone that had a VERY strong cause of Autism, he acts very weird childish and has trouble speaking properly, but is very intelligent, I know he is, I can just sense it, like everyone else with Autism, I respect those people a lot.

 

[Amaruuk]

I am a very emotional person if pushed over the edge. You do not want to get my upset because you'll get on my bad side and it lets me feel like I can't trust you.

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Things like punishment and yelling make me cry and sometimes too much yelling makes me meltdown to shreds.

This is exactly how I am to a T. Luckily there haven't been too many incidents since I moved off to college over a year ago. I don't recall anyone here ever intentionally pushing my buttons, though there was one crazy ageist chick I roomed with in student housing. She was 25 but acted like she was too old for everything and showed no respect to those even a year or two younger. She acted like she had been through everything someone younger would have been through already, and acted like she knew about people better than I did despite how antisocial she was. I could rant about her forever, but I have to go to school now XD

 

[Soul Eater]

This is exactly how I am to a T. Luckily there haven't been too many incidents since I moved off to college over a year ago. I don't recall anyone here ever intentionally pushing my buttons, though there was one crazy ageist chick I roomed with in student housing. She was 25 but acted like she was too old for everything and showed no respect to those even a year or two younger. She acted like she had been through everything someone younger would have been through already, and acted like she knew about people better than I did despite how antisocial she was. I could rant about her forever, but I have to go to school now XD

Maybe you and I should be twins? :'D

I had a friend, his name was Kendall and he was very severe. He couldn't speak well but he was VERY smart. His favorite thing was the internet. I mean this boy could type perfectly on a keyboard, google for games and everything.

He was very cute. <3

 

[h POKE]

I tend to respect those with mental disabilities, because it can often be very frustrating and horrible to not be in control of your words or your actions.

What I can't stand, however, is when people shout "retard!". It makes me think that anyone with that small a grasp of what it means to be disabled just shouldn't speak. It's rude, and I think it's disrespectful to people who actually suffer from mental retardation...

 

[Soul Eater]

I tend to respect those with mental disabilities, because it can often be very frustrating and horrible to not be in control of your words or your actions.

What I can't stand, however, is when people shout "retard!". It makes me think that anyone with that small a grasp of what it means to be disabled just shouldn't speak. It's rude, and I think it's disrespectful to people who actually suffer from mental retardation...

I've never been called a retard. I've just felt like that's what everyone had treated me as. DX

It is hard having people whou really can't grasp the fact of someone with a disability. I know some people that consider Autistic children to be brats. >_>

I'm a brat but I'm not an autistic brat. My dad only spoils me because he wants me to have the things he didnt have when he was growing up. D:

Not being able to understand your actions is different from acting like a brat all the time.

 

[NoBel_ToKYo ™]

I've never been called a retard. I've just felt like that's what everyone had treated me as. DX

It is hard having people whou really can't grasp the fact of someone with a disability. I know some people that consider Autistic children to be brats. >_>

I'm a brat but I'm not an autistic brat. My dad only spoils me because he wants me to have the things he didnt have when he was growing up. D:

Not being able to understand your actions is different from acting like a brat all the time.

Considering Autistic people to be brats is extremely narrow minded :O

I've been called a retard by people for many years, and have been treated like i was some kind of idiot who can't think for themselves. It still happens now and again, But that's why i have begun to open up to society and act more like my own person. ^_^ I really feel for the other people here who go through the same hardships and such, and,like a lot of other people here have a great deal of respect for them and the things they go through.

 

[Soul Eater]

Considering Autistic people to be brats is extremely narrow minded :O

I've been called a retard by people for many years, and have been treated like i was some kind of idiot who can't think for themselves. It still happens now and again, But that's why i have begun to open up to society and act more like my own person. ^_^ I really feel for the other people here who go through the same hardships and such, and,like a lot of other people here have a great deal of respect for them and the things they go through.

I like being different. I mean being normal can be overrated sometimes because you can't always fit in with other crowds. You end up fending for yourself most of the time and it's better than being put into some stereotype where you really don't belong.

I've never followed trends. I do things a child would do, not what a young adult would and that makes me really different. I mean I have kids that are under fourteen who used to play with me and make friends with me. XD Because I had a childish personality and could relate to the games they played.

Hell, I didn't stop playing with barbies and hot wheels cars until I was about eight or nine. :'D

I still collect lots of stuffed animals and plushes and even watch cartoons all the time. <3

I even carry my Inuyasha plush everywhere I go and bring him inside public places. People stare but I don't care. I have my reasons and it used to be that my mom hated me with my plush but my dad knew it was more of a comfort object so he convinced her to let me carry it and she stopped trying to tell me to leave it home.

See, when I don't have my plush with me, I start to worry more about things that might happen when he isn't with me and I even panic. When I do have him, I feel at ease and calm about things and sometimes I even talk to people I don't know, but if I didn't have him then, it would be different.

There are times when i find myself sniffing him for sensory input or like...banging the back of his head on my leg. XD Sometimes just hugging him for comfort too.

It all just keeps me really calm so I don't go into a huge panic and meltdown. XD I usually don't do any autistic odd behaviors in public, accept maybe move around or pace and sometimes when I sit, I rock back and forth because when I'm around alot of people, I get a bit nervous and sometimes being alone in the car makes me do those odd behaviors too, since I'm trying to comfort myself but usually I look around more anxiously too and I want to curl up into a ball and hide from those people. D:

Does that ever happen to you?

 

[NoBel_ToKYo ™]

I like being different. I mean being normal can be overrated sometimes because you can't always fit in with other crowds. You end up fending for yourself most of the time and it's better than being put into some stereotype where you really don't belong.

I've never followed trends. I do things a child would do, not what a young adult would and that makes me really different. I mean I have kids that are under fourteen who used to play with me and make friends with me. XD Because I had a childish personality and could relate to the games they played.

Hell, I didn't stop playing with barbies and hot wheels cars until I was about eight or nine. :'D

I still collect lots of stuffed animals and plushes and even watch cartoons all the time. <3

I even carry my Inuyasha plush everywhere I go and bring him inside public places. People stare but I don't care. I have my reasons and it used to be that my mom hated me with my plush but my dad knew it was more of a comfort object so he convinced her to let me carry it and she stopped trying to tell me to leave it home.

See, when I don't have my plush with me, I start to worry more about things that might happen when he isn't with me and I even panic. When I do have him, I feel at ease and calm about things and sometimes I even talk to people I don't know, but if I didn't have him then, it would be different.

There are times when i find myself sniffing him for sensory input or like...banging the back of his head on my leg. XD Sometimes just hugging him for comfort too.

It all just keeps me really calm so I don't go into a huge panic and meltdown. XD I usually don't do any autistic odd behaviors in public, accept maybe move around or pace and sometimes when I sit, I rock back and forth because when I'm around alot of people, I get a bit nervous and sometimes being alone in the car makes me do those odd behaviors too, since I'm trying to comfort myself but usually I look around more anxiously too and I want to curl up into a ball and hide from those people. D:

Does that ever happen to you?

I used to that kind of thing loads ^__^ Like tap my feet off of the floor constantly, and i make lots and lots of hand movement in conversation. I sometimes still show this, But i've tried very hard over years to overcome that kind of thing with my councillor. She wanted me to be more confident with the people around me, and i am a lot more than i used to be, But sometimes i resort to the me that not many people can understand.

 

[Soul Eater]

I used to that kind of thing loads ^__^ Like tap my feet off of the floor constantly, and i make lots and lots of hand movement in conversation. I sometimes still show this, But i've tried very hard over years to overcome that kind of thing with my councillor. She wanted me to be more confident with the people around me, and i am a lot more than i used to be, But sometimes i resort to the me that not many people can understand.

Social Interaction was always hard for me. I prefer being alone and sometimes I just don't like being touched or having lots of sound around me.

Lately, I've been bugged by sound. DX I resort to covering my ears and blocking it out because its becoming more and more overwhelming in public.

 

[NoBel_ToKYo ™]

Lol i've said this earlier in the thread aswell...I used to have a problem like that, but only with really loud noises etc. And it was years ago, doesn't bother me much anymore

 

[Game Over1375]

I like being different. I mean being normal can be overrated sometimes because you can't always fit in with other crowds. You end up fending for yourself most of the time and it's better than being put into some stereotype where you really don't belong.

I agree. As someone who has Asperger's Syndrome, it feels awesome to be different.