Mix of multiple emotions at once. Presently I am feeling all happy, sad, furious, timid, etc. all at the same time..........
The reason behind this is/are the event(s) which took place within last 12 hrs. It turned out so much intense that I was subjected to all of these emotions altogether. I had started to get this feeling about a week ago, when I was not able to fell asleep due to some discussions elsewhere, but some tasks diverted me from that. But yesterday was different, and that flare finally turned violent and shook apart all of it.
The emotion which was there about 8-9 hrs ago was so much wild that I was considering to go into obscurity once and for all, bidding farewell to everyone whom I had met here.....
I was feeling happy because I brought myself out from that place; felt sad due to my actions; was furious because none of the people ever understood my point of view and lamented me wrong just because of another reply which I made about 2-3 weeks ago; felt timid because everyone was up against me. I do believe in the quote which says "Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character". And I personally felt that my presence in that place made my attitude weak, even though I am not like that.
Since the things which interests me are not the one which are liked by others, and vice versa as well. Hence it was creating lots of friction between myself and others in that place. And my presence over there made me feel like living dead who is into the place where I don't belong at all. And as I said that people over there have highly polar opposite interests w.r.t. mine, hence it was highly incoherent as well, where I just cannot say about what I like. So naturally the best course of action was to move away from the place like that. Hopefully, I believe that there are people around the world who can understand me and my interests, where they will witness my true self....
Although health conditions are bad, but luckily in this case, I should thank the health issue in this particular case, which I picked up while I was away, because of which I didn't took hard decision of deleting myself from here, as I was needed urgent medication at that moment, due to which I turned off all the systems and went to my parents !!