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I work part-time on the railway and all I have to say about this is that there was a horrible incident involving the train that was directly in front of mine a few months ago where two teenagers jumped together, and one of them survived for several minutes on the tracks. The aftermath is always horrifying, and it has a huge psychological effect on the drivers. It's not a good way to die — not that there's a good way to die.Yes, I have thought of killing myself - I fall into such low points quite often. The method I often consider using is running in front of a moving train; many tonnes of metal moving at high speed vs. a 60kg human probably yields the same winner quite often. I only quite recently got over a bout of suicidal thoughts, actually.
I have often been suicidal, and when I was a few years younger I had a lot of elaborate plans for my own death. Some of them were more dramatic than others. But the one thing I remember most about that period of my life was how frightened I was — frightened of dying. I thought that it was inevitable that I was going to kill myself, and I was terrified by the prospect. That's why when I see someone talking about suicide, and especially if they've seriously thought about methodology, it worries me. I'm not going to say that my life is easy now, or that I don't still suffer from depression periodically, but it is possible to get out of that pit of overwhelming pain and despair. It does happen. So please try to find help, or someone you can talk to, if you're in that place. It's dangerous, and it's desperate, and it's dark, and nobody should have to go through it alone.