I'd honestly like to say that I've changed much since I joined PC last year, but honestly, nothing else apart from grammatical changes has happened. Even then, not many differences come to mind. I'd also like to say that I've become less self-centered, less arrogant, less all-round egotistic. But no, far from that. In fact, I've become worse. Torn and frayed friendships, insulted and disgusted everyone around me and foremost screwed my social life altogether. Much has to be corrected but I hardly see myself doing that without nuking everyone else in the process. I'd also like to state that the people I talk to wouldn't deign with me, but it's the truth. They'd also say that I'm beating myself up and I'm not like that, but who knows you more than yourself? Emotions may cloud judgement, but this is not one of the cases.
Posting wise, I've pretty much broken every rule here and probably will not live another year on this forum, sadly. Maybe the forum will be better off without my nonsensical posting and illiterate contributions. Well, not contributions. Must use right words and less sarcasm. I mean, all I've done is SPAM and pleasure the destructive force known as my mind, hardly something to look back on and smile on, frown more like. For example: picking a fight with everyone I meet and always publicly, the least I could do is do it in private where the mortal eyes of the forum can't see and critique on it. Once again, my ...associates (for lack of a better word, because I can't exactly call them friends when I'm not one) would say that I've made them laugh and I have done things for the forum. But honestly? I look back and I don't even want to make the mental connection that I said that, that I posted that. I don't want to acknowledge what I've done, but they'll always be a ghost for all to see. My arrogance on show, narcissism on exhibition. I see that I'm a failure when it comes to posting and always will be, examples would be throughout my postcount. The entire postcount. Worthless, all of it. even when I try to make good posts, some sort of snide and evil comment comes in, shattering what could've been something..worthy. When you picture pathetic, do you picture a snivelling man in a corner? I picture myself. Well, I'd rather not, but thats what it is.
Now we come to one of my greatest forum related shames, blogging. Ugh, they've all been spur-of-the-moment failures. I'll sum it up in one word. Crap. Not much to dwell on here, they're all connected by that same word and they're all miserably thought of.
Hmm. Maturity is kinda non-existant, rather not dwell on that either.
There you have it, my incomprehensible post on myself here, deigning with the truth.
