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- The Øz {usa}
- Seen Nov 29, 2019
I changed my life around 2 and a half years ago now and stopped being something I wasn't proud or happy to be. I was extremely negative, pessimistic even angry a lot for a person. Since deep down I was in pain and tremendously sad for things I've endured over the years with people. I was doing very good the first year of changing my life around however now this year it's been more downs yet again as well pain I feel in my heart. I have my family for support but they can't really help all to much or take away my pain.
Since it's something only I can do to push through it and learn to let go and move forward in life. I feel now these past 3 months of this year has been the most hardest for me and I feel like nothing is going right anymore and should just give up. Not in that way just not talking to people and having any relations with anyone other than my family, family friends and help team. It sounds pretty bad but I've been through a lot and even though I am doing better than I was and changed my ways I still struggle mentally very much. I feel now I'd messed up again with trying to reach out to people around places and feel I should just stop trying to get close to others.
I joined here to try and socialize more and see what happens from there but I'm not sure anymore now if I should stay here. Even though this fourms looks safe, friendly and has great people I notced. I just fear to approach others and try and make conversation. I apologize for sounding depressive though I just saw this thread and wanted to write my feelings down. For an answer is I'm half way emotionally / mentally strong and I still have a long ways to go to get even more better and truly feel at peace with myself. I'm not sure what else to say so I'll leave it as that.
Since it's something only I can do to push through it and learn to let go and move forward in life. I feel now these past 3 months of this year has been the most hardest for me and I feel like nothing is going right anymore and should just give up. Not in that way just not talking to people and having any relations with anyone other than my family, family friends and help team. It sounds pretty bad but I've been through a lot and even though I am doing better than I was and changed my ways I still struggle mentally very much. I feel now I'd messed up again with trying to reach out to people around places and feel I should just stop trying to get close to others.
I joined here to try and socialize more and see what happens from there but I'm not sure anymore now if I should stay here. Even though this fourms looks safe, friendly and has great people I notced. I just fear to approach others and try and make conversation. I apologize for sounding depressive though I just saw this thread and wanted to write my feelings down. For an answer is I'm half way emotionally / mentally strong and I still have a long ways to go to get even more better and truly feel at peace with myself. I'm not sure what else to say so I'll leave it as that.