Well guys, this is something that I have been considering for a while, and I guess it's time.
I've been feeling really dry the past few days, what with my pair (who I will not name, but most of you probably already know who i'm talking about) going missing again. She made a disappearance for a few days, but she came back from it, explained, and said her activity was going to pick back up. Which it didn't. And that has made it really hard for me to not miss her.
And I know some people might tell me i'm too riled up over this, which I can understand, since this is the internet. But I doubt many of you know what it's like when someone you're having such a great time with says so many nice things about you and the site, and then almost straight after that, just disappears with no warning whatsoever - heck, from someone who knows full well that you've had friends vanish on you and say they would never wish that on anyone.
She was absolutely a doll to have a conversation with, and the thought of never seeing her again... Right now, i'm just heartbroken. :'( Her "reassuring" me several times that I had nothing to worry about just makes that terrible feeling even fucking worse.
Now, again, I could be overthinking this - it's only been just about two weeks, she could be totally fine and just show up again out of nowhere, but i'm just really worrying about her. And the thing is, it just makes it hard for me to want to branch out to others, and I get that there are plenty of people here, but I feel like i'm not exactly the best at starting conversations with most of them. And aside from that, i've also been annoyed with certain things that have happened here, but I don't want to go into specifics as to keep from having people get too upset. Nowadays, I feel like I force myself to post here, and that's not something I want to do.
It doesn't help that my real life has needed attending to, as well. I have a lot of work to deal with, and i've felt that I haven't been the same person recently, even with things outside of this. It's something that I don't want to just leave as I feel like it is. There are a lot of things on my plate,
Bottom line is, this place has been frustrating me. I can't really attend to my duties perfectly when that's going on. So, my activity is going to be significantly reduced until further notice. I don't know how long it'll be, but I won't be on here much at all for a little while. Right now there's just so much going on in my head...
There are a couple important things on the forum that i'll try to be able to make use of, but I will be in hidden for a while. I will also be disabling VMs, and I don't want to go much into my reasoning for that, but PMs will still be open if you want to talk to me on a more personal level (I set it so I would receive e-mail notifications for PMs).
I'll still be on Marriland, and you might catch me on Lake Valor or Slateport City, too. Hopefully i'll be back in full in time for the Get-Together, but right now I am not feeling as good as I want to.
Sorry if this was long, or if it just sounded like venting, but I hope you guys can understand me. Thanks!