Serperior
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"TL;DR" ahead, the faint of sympathy/empathy do not need to read this.
Spoiler:
I've been having a hard time getting through even a few hours in one day.
Why? Because I'm effing miserable. Whenever I care about someone, they just disappear or break up with me for whatever reason, especially when they promised they'd be there for me and never leave me. This also happens in groups, except that the groups get fed up with me and wish me away from their visage.
It's not just one, two, or three people and/or groups. In fact, I've lost count of how many times they've said such things to me. I'm at the point where I think people are just manipulating or using me. I'm at the point where I don't care about anyone's happiness anymore because of the constant abandonment and the constant ignoring whenever I tried to address my situation.
Yes, I'm on medications, probably half the SSRIs on the market actually. Doctors don't really help me [note the "half of the SSRIs on the market"], and if I address my problems IRL, I'll just be sent to the hospital again. Both methods just won't work. I'm considering that swallowing a whole bottle of painkillers is a good idea instead of talking to yet another person about it. But here I am anyways. =|
Why? Because I'm effing miserable. Whenever I care about someone, they just disappear or break up with me for whatever reason, especially when they promised they'd be there for me and never leave me. This also happens in groups, except that the groups get fed up with me and wish me away from their visage.
It's not just one, two, or three people and/or groups. In fact, I've lost count of how many times they've said such things to me. I'm at the point where I think people are just manipulating or using me. I'm at the point where I don't care about anyone's happiness anymore because of the constant abandonment and the constant ignoring whenever I tried to address my situation.
Yes, I'm on medications, probably half the SSRIs on the market actually. Doctors don't really help me [note the "half of the SSRIs on the market"], and if I address my problems IRL, I'll just be sent to the hospital again. Both methods just won't work. I'm considering that swallowing a whole bottle of painkillers is a good idea instead of talking to yet another person about it. But here I am anyways. =|