Dear Anonymous,
... I-I have never been known for being very good at expressing my feelings...
It's always been really hard for me to say how I really feel, whether it involves being able to articulate or just being awkward in general, I just can't for some reason.. But tonight... I'm so overwhelmed with emotion that the words are just spilling out of my lips to nobody... I feel it may be time to finally articulate something... anything... so, I will try my best to form something that makes even the tiniest bit of sense...
I first noticed you through your art. I am a huge admirer of art in all of it's forms. Your choice of art involves comics and drawings - and as I later found out, music, as well. I've seen art in all of it's ways, shapes, and forms ; and I have payed very close attention to everything I've seen, artists included. While all of this art I found to be incredible, it always felt to me like something was missing... something vital. Something all of these artists were missing in their works. Sure, it's all beautiful on the outside... but... what about the inside?..
And then I found it... within your art : heart.
Passion. Love. Inspiration. Emotion. Muse.
Every single piece... I see it. You put so much feeling into every single thing you make, no matter how "simple" it is. I can see the emotion within your art... and most of all, I can see you.
So, I talked to you... and I cannot describe to you in words how nervous I was to say something to you. But, what do you know~? It went a lot more smoothly than I ever expected...! We hit off like ricocheting lightning bolts...! Over time, I.. I started to learn things about you that I never expected to learn. Sad, traumatic, upsetting things... I found out just how much heart you really do use within your art. Every time I get upset it's highly difficult for me to concentrate on my art... I tend to lose my inspiration very easily and quit drawing for a while...
What I found within you personally was the ability to take pain, suffering, and things most would find to be permanently destructive to the being, and use it to fuel your muse. You use it as a fuel to your passion, and you use it to create things I never thought I'd see in this life time. It's... such a rare thing.. to be able to do that and keep at it for many years without your passion ever wavering. The patience you have to continue practicing and making such time-consuming projects... and to continue working towards achieving that artistic goal no matter what is thrown your way... it's just... impeccable.
You told me before that your art is your only talent, and that although you love the piano you aren't very good at playing it. Just so you know, when you gave me that speed painting video earlier, I went into your Youtube and found many videos of you playing the piano...
I want you to know... t-that it took my breath away. I've never been that stunned before by music... Your heart is present when you play that, as well... Your piano playing skills are incredible.. just like your art is. ////// So don't ever say that again, okay...? ;;
I-I guess what I've been meaning to say throughout this entire silly post is that... You've quickly become my very own muse...
You inspire me with every little thing that you do, and you inspire me to keep this very weak drive to draw... That same weak drive that seems to get stronger every time I talk to you. Although you may never believe me due to a multitude of reasons... you are an incredible, amazing, beautiful person. You are the reason I keep at my art. You are why I wake up in the morning and smile as bright as I possibly can... because, I know that as long as I have you in my life, I have the drive to dominate any sadness or discouragement that stands in my way...!
.. Just like you always did, and always do...!