Autism, Aspergers syndrome etc.

[Amaruuk]

I like being different. I mean being normal can be overrated sometimes because you can't always fit in with other crowds. You end up fending for yourself most of the time and it's better than being put into some stereotype where you really don't belong.

I've never followed trends. I do things a child would do, not what a young adult would and that makes me really different. I mean I have kids that are under fourteen who used to play with me and make friends with me. XD Because I had a childish personality and could relate to the games they played.

Hell, I didn't stop playing with barbies and hot wheels cars until I was about eight or nine. :'D

I still collect lots of stuffed animals and plushes and even watch cartoons all the time. <3

I even carry my Inuyasha plush everywhere I go and bring him inside public places. People stare but I don't care. I have my reasons and it used to be that my mom hated me with my plush but my dad knew it was more of a comfort object so he convinced her to let me carry it and she stopped trying to tell me to leave it home.

See, when I don't have my plush with me, I start to worry more about things that might happen when he isn't with me and I even panic. When I do have him, I feel at ease and calm about things and sometimes I even talk to people I don't know, but if I didn't have him then, it would be different.

There are times when i find myself sniffing him for sensory input or like...banging the back of his head on my leg. XD Sometimes just hugging him for comfort too.

It all just keeps me really calm so I don't go into a huge panic and meltdown. XD I usually don't do any autistic odd behaviors in public, accept maybe move around or pace and sometimes when I sit, I rock back and forth because when I'm around alot of people, I get a bit nervous and sometimes being alone in the car makes me do those odd behaviors too, since I'm trying to comfort myself but usually I look around more anxiously too and I want to curl up into a ball and hide from those people. D:

Does that ever happen to you?

One day last week, the lake thing behind my apartment building was frozen over, and I, a grown woman, was playing with sticks and rocks and sliding them across the ice, right by the gate where people come in or leave. I didn't care what they thought. It was fun! I have a tendency to enjoy things in a much more child-like manner, like driving to the store or finding someplace new is a "mission" or "adventure" to me. Needless to say, I have lots of adventures. With this frame of mind, everything's exciting!

I've had lots of comfort objects over the years. Most of the time a comfort object will relate to my current interests or obsessions. I'm a very fickle person, so of course there have been a lot of them over 20 years. I don't get quite as attached to them as I used to, and I no longer feel the need to have them in public, but it wasn't all that long ago when I used to. One of the ones I had in 10th grade or so was a Vegeta action figure. I brought it to school daily. Naturally, the kids all thought I was just some obsessed freak.

When I was growing up, and even now to a much lesser degree, I couldn't get enough stuffed animals. Every vacation, every trip to the mall, the school fair, etc. I would usually come home with at least one. Almost all of them are at mom's or dad's house, along with the overwhelming majority of my other treasures. I hope to get all of that stuff down here to my place soon. I worry about it all way too much.

Also, about sound, life as a college student is basically putting up with noise no matter where you are. With all the noise floating around, I just can't seem to understand why I'm the only one that's so bothered by it. Everyone else either makes the noise, or can ignore it. I can't. Why doesn't anyone understand? They just expect me to ignore it, too. I don't think it's fair to have that much noise in what's supposed to be a learning environment and be scoffed at 'cause I'm the only one who wants peace and quiet. I will never understand young adults. Cranky old people aren't the only ones who want noisy youngsters to turn their damn music down.

 

[NoBel_ToKYo ™]

One day last week, the lake thing behind my apartment building was frozen over, and I, a grown woman, was playing with sticks and rocks and sliding them across the ice, right by the gate where people come in or leave. I didn't care what they thought. It was fun! I have a tendency to enjoy things in a much more child-like manner, like driving to the store or finding someplace new is a "mission" or "adventure" to me. Needless to say, I have lots of adventures. With this frame of mind, everything's exciting!

I can relate to this! When i was younger i used to do this kind of thing all the time, setting my own objectives, to do simple things etc. It's one of the reasons i got bullied.

I'll be going to college very soon, as i am about to leave school. I will have learning support there, but i will only get it when i want it. I've requested for this and they seem to be very understanding. ^_^

 

[Soul Eater]

I probably won't go to college. DX It's just because I had a hard enough time just getting through high school and not getting the help I needed. Plus, I just feel like even if I did try to get into college, I'd forget what I learned.

So for now, I'm enjoying the permament vacation of no school because I do feel free and not as stressed as I was in school.

See, my parents ALWAYS had a hard time getting me to go. There was always something that seemed to make me feel overwhelmed and comfortable. I mean I loved hanging out with friends but it was probably all the work.

Doing homework was always hard for me and hard on my parents just getting me to do it. D: I was glad to get out of school because now, I don't have to worry about any homework overloads and stressing over writing something I just can't seem to write.

 

[s0nido]

I myself am not disabled in any way (at least that's what my parents tell me), but I do know that my baby cousin has autism. My uncle is schizophrenic. My cousin has major trouble learning to speak, and I don't think he's able to speak well now (he's six or seven). My uncle isn't terribly schizophrenic. He's very gentle and kind, but he has those conversations with himself and has hallucinations.

It must be tough living with a disability, as mental illness is not fully understood by others. People who have mental illnesses tend to be outcast, and it was only recently that people are beginning to understand mental illnesses on some scale. Though it still is a vague topic, as you can't actually see anything wrong.

 

[NoBel_ToKYo ™]

I probably won't go to college. DX It's just because I had a hard enough time just getting through high school and not getting the help I needed. Plus, I just feel like even if I did try to get into college, I'd forget what I learned.

So for now, I'm enjoying the permament vacation of no school because I do feel free and not as stressed as I was in school.

See, my parents ALWAYS had a hard time getting me to go. There was always something that seemed to make me feel overwhelmed and comfortable. I mean I loved hanging out with friends but it was probably all the work.

Doing homework was always hard for me and hard on my parents just getting me to do it. D: I was glad to get out of school because now, I don't have to worry about any homework overloads and stressing over writing something I just can't seem to write.

The only IRL freind i know with aspergers doesn't go to any school, just like you..He dropped out of school because he had a nervous breakdown there :( I've known him all my life, almost literally. He had all the more reason to stay from school when his dad died :( But i support him in what he does with himself. But i found going to see him and hearing about all this was such a great responsibility on me. I felt like i had his world on my shoulders, it's one of the reasons i became clinically depressed.

I also find homework to be torturous. I refuse to do it at home, i MUST do it at school, or i won't. :S I got into a lot of trouble like that XD

And i do feel guilty for stuff i shouldn't feel so guilty about..Like today, we were working in this group together, and two of my team members started arguing. One of them ended up punching the other and beating him up, and i wanted to stop it, y'know? but i just kinda..stood there, frozen, in between. Now i wish i had pulled the guy off of the "victim" shall we say. I had to write an account of what happened today, among 3 other witnesses.

Man, that felt great to vent out

 

[Soul Eater]

I myself am not disabled in any way (at least that's what my parents tell me), but I do know that my baby cousin has autism. My uncle is schizophrenic. My cousin has major trouble learning to speak, and I don't think he's able to speak well now (he's six or seven). My uncle isn't terribly schizophrenic. He's very gentle and kind, but he has those conversations with himself and has hallucinations.

It must be tough living with a disability, as mental illness is not fully understood by others. People who have mental illnesses tend to be outcast, and it was only recently that people are beginning to understand mental illnesses on some scale. Though it still is a vague topic, as you can't actually see anything wrong.

It can be tough. I've had alot of trouble having people understanding me. I've learned to cope better and I'm no longer afraid to hide. I don't care what people think and I'd rather show my disability rather than act like I live in some shell.

As you get older, you learn to cope with having a disability. It's normal to feel overwhelmed at some point but I don't get overly paranoid.

I do want to note that I have huge sensory overload to perfume or cologne, like if you wear alot of it, you wouldnt want to be near me. I had a bad experience with it in fourth grade and almost got sick.

See, someone spilled it all over the place and it caused the whole 3rd and fourth grade classrooms to smell TERRIBLE.

Ever since then I get wicked bad headaches from it and my mom wears perfume. It smells so strong to me but to her she only sprayed a little.

I think it could be the autism. Plus, if you add the terrible bad experience, then it's so overstimulating.

I don't mind perfume like, I love this perfume called Japanese cherry blossom and I use it on my bed, pillows and plushies to make them smell fresh.

I feel like that too! Sometimes in Life Skills, when I got mad at my teachers, I always felt like I should have stood up for myself. My mom always said I was some sort of a time bomb that would go off at anytime. I have had times when I got close to wanting to slap someone but I never did.

One thing I can't stand though, is people that seem to go around saying they have a developmental disability, when really they don't have anything wrong. They use their fake disability to get attention and after the person finds out they don't have a disability, they get upset....but then when someone really DOES have a disability that could cause a lot of problems, they don't get the attention they need.

I hate that. Sometimes I use my disability to get attention, but usually when I know I feel bad about something, like when I lost a game, I always felt bad and in my life skills class, alot of kids cried when they lost. It can be hard to accept losing when you have a disability.

It doesn't mean I'm a sore loser or have bad sportsmanship, I mean I do have a disability and that kind of has that affect. D:

 

[PkMn Trained]

I have Chronic Depression. Not sure if this countas because its tehniclly not a dissability, which is what everyones talking about, but im also Gifted.( My I.Q. is 140.)

Basily means Academic Excellence. Whats odd is Giftedness is usualy mistaken for/ Acompinied by ADHD.

 

[Manaphy1128]

I just have a few things I'd like to add to this, really.

One would be when people do and do not blame my problems for my Asperger's Syndrome. Such as when my Mom says to me, "Your AS is showing." Another time was when this girl says to me, "You can't blame everything on your disorder"(well, really, she said "disease," that's how dumb she was). But anyway, I hadn't said anything about my disorder that day or since the first time I saw her. And then she assumes that since I have AS, I usually just blame everything on it. Um, yeah.

Also, I do see that people with disorders usually get cast off. Reasons for me are because of me talking to my Inner Voice (which many people refer to as "talking to yourself," but I assure you, it's not the same. An Inner Voice is usually another person you create inside of you or is created by your feelings, while talking to yourself is rather just talking to yourself), the whole obsession thing that comes with AS, my rapidly changing of topics, et cetera, et cetera. Mostly the Inner Voice and obsession. My Inner Voice quirk makes me look like one of those weirdos on the corner always muttering to themselves, though I'm not. With the obsession, I'm bad with conversations because I always want to talk about what I want to talk about. I won't move off the topic and become very uncomfortable when the topci switches for fear of saying something stupid. If we're talking about something I know about, I'll know all about it and it's basically impossible for me to say the wrong thing (though I can say stupid things while talking about things I like). But also with my obsession, since it's all I talk about and will randomly say things about it whenever possible (i.e. randomly referencing it during a school lesson, every song reminds me of it, etc.), therefore people will just list me off as "weirdo" and move on to the next person they need to put down. I've also gotten consistent questions after I talked about my obsession, such as "Are you gay?" "Are you bi?" and "Are you lesbian?" somehow.

My public appearance is sort of odd due to my AS. I sit with my knees up all the time, I dress in only certain types of clothes (for me, T-shirts and gym shorts), my hair has to be like Misa's (from Death Note), etc.

Also when people first hear the name they have to make fun of it (i.e. "Ass-burgers"). It never ceases to amaze me.

 

[Soul Eater]

I just have a few things I'd like to add to this, really.

One would be when people do and do not blame my problems for my Asperger's Syndrome. Such as when my Mom says to me, "Your AS is showing." Another time was when this girl says to me, "You can't blame everything on your disorder"(well, really, she said "disease," that's how dumb she was). But anyway, I hadn't said anything about my disorder that day or since the first time I saw her. And then she assumes that since I have AS, I usually just blame everything on it. Um, yeah.

Also, I do see that people with disorders usually get cast off. Reasons for me are because of me talking to my Inner Voice (which many people refer to as "talking to yourself," but I assure you, it's not the same. An Inner Voice is usually another person you create inside of you or is created by your feelings, while talking to yourself is rather just talking to yourself), the whole obsession thing that comes with AS, my rapidly changing of topics, et cetera, et cetera. Mostly the Inner Voice and obsession. My Inner Voice quirk makes me look like one of those weirdos on the corner always muttering to themselves, though I'm not. With the obsession, I'm bad with conversations because I always want to talk about what I want to talk about. I won't move off the topic and become very uncomfortable when the topci switches for fear of saying something stupid. If we're talking about something I know about, I'll know all about it and it's basically impossible for me to say the wrong thing (though I can say stupid things while talking about things I like). But also with my obsession, since it's all I talk about and will randomly say things about it whenever possible (i.e. randomly referencing it during a school lesson, every song reminds me of it, etc.), therefore people will just list me off as "weirdo" and move on to the next person they need to put down. I've also gotten consistent questions after I talked about my obsession, such as "Are you gay?" "Are you bi?" and "Are you lesbian?" somehow.

My public appearance is sort of odd due to my AS. I sit with my knees up all the time, I dress in only certain types of clothes (for me, T-shirts and gym shorts), my hair has to be like Misa's (from Death Note), etc.

Also when people first hear the name they have to make fun of it (i.e. "Ass-burgers"). It never ceases to amaze me.

By inner voice, you mean almost like having some sort of invisible friend? I am like that too. I have alot of invisible friends I talk to and it makes me feel at ease.

 

[Manaphy1128]

By inner voice, you mean almost like having some sort of invisible friend? I am like that too. I have alot of invisible friends I talk to and it makes me feel at ease.

Basically. Just sort of someone you make to converse with when no one else is around or will listen or, especially this, if no one cares.

 

[Soul Eater]

Basically. Just sort of someone you make to converse with when no one else is around or will listen or, especially this, if no one cares.

Well, I've always had invisible friends and it makes things easier because even though they aren't real, I still feel like I have someone I can talk to.

Also, when you said that girl told you that you can't blame your AS on everything, I can relate. I've always had these feeling that most of my actions are based on my autism. My parents would always say that I can't blame everything on it.

It's the same thing for my fears. I have a huge HUGE fear of spiders, dentists and thunder. Plus I also have a fear of horror movie trailers and horror movies themselves and a fear of witches. (I can't watch Scooby and the witch's ghost because I get scared.) I just fear so much that I can't name, everything.

It's hard for me because I can't help being so anxious. It's just hard for me to get over these fears.

With dentists, it's so bad that if I don't have any laughing gas or novacaine, no dentist can get me to settle down. I get so fearful that I start crying and I've hated them since I was five years old.

The insurance I have doesn't cover the laughing gas and novacaine, and I was at the dentist to get my teeth checked...I started to cry because they said I couldn't get it.

 

[Melody]

Though I have never been formally diagnosed with any of the mentioned conditions in this thread (except maybe ADHD, as a child) I do tend to have a few immature tendencies. But as I've grown I've gotten better at controlling them. I'm basically pretty calm nowadays. When I get to feeling too fidgety, I just pull out my Zune and listen to music. It helps me focus a bit.

Though, I do enjoy being myself, and I do agree, I dont get to do it enough. It's why I'm always online. At least here I can be myself without drawing too many rude remarks. It's not easy when you have to hold onto a facade really. It kinda sucks. x3

But I've always had this calm and collected outer self. At least as long as I can remember.

But on occasion I do actually do annoying things. If they complain and I'm in a bad mood I tell them to buzz off. XD

 

[Amaruuk]

I probably won't go to college. DX It's just because I had a hard enough time just getting through high school and not getting the help I needed. Plus, I just feel like even if I did try to get into college, I'd forget what I learned.

I'll be completely honest here and say that I would never have even considered college if not for the Art Institutes. You wouldn't catch me at an actual university, except in a parallel universe in which everything is the opposite. So in essence, I empathize with your not wanting to go.

Also, I do see that people with disorders usually get cast off. Reasons for me are because of me talking to my Inner Voice (which many people refer to as "talking to yourself," but I assure you, it's not the same. An Inner Voice is usually another person you create inside of you or is created by your feelings, while talking to yourself is rather just talking to yourself), the whole obsession thing that comes with AS, my rapidly changing of topics, et cetera, et cetera. Mostly the Inner Voice and obsession. My Inner Voice quirk makes me look like one of those weirdos on the corner always muttering to themselves, though I'm not. With the obsession, I'm bad with conversations because I always want to talk about what I want to talk about. I won't move off the topic and become very uncomfortable when the topci switches for fear of saying something stupid. If we're talking about something I know about, I'll know all about it and it's basically impossible for me to say the wrong thing (though I can say stupid things while talking about things I like). But also with my obsession, since it's all I talk about and will randomly say things about it whenever possible (i.e. randomly referencing it during a school lesson, every song reminds me of it, etc.), therefore people will just list me off as "weirdo" and move on to the next person they need to put down. I've also gotten consistent questions after I talked about my obsession, such as "Are you gay?" "Are you bi?" and "Are you lesbian?" somehow.

Yet another description that fits me to a T. I couldn't have described the obsession thing better myself. Obsessions are by far my number 1 people-deterrent. They were the things I was most teased about growing up, and no matter how embarrassed I was about an obsession or how much I knew I'd be teased or asked stupid questions, I had absolutely no way to keep a lid on them. It's still one of the most prominent hindrances, though I have a bit more control (a bit).

I do have that Inner Voice thing, if only mildly. I never saw it as much of a problem, but life gets kind of lonely if the only inside jokes you have are with yourself.

 

[NoBel_ToKYo ™]

Today i was in the learning support part of my school, in a "meeting" with other autistic kids (i was one of three, but now the schools starting to fill with them XD) They seem to be okay.

And yes, i tend to get VERY obsessive over things :P I go into massive phases with one thing for months, it annoys people sometimes...

 

[Soul Eater]

Today i was in the learning support part of my school, in a "meeting" with other autistic kids (i was one of three, but now the schools starting to fill with them XD) They seem to be okay.

And yes, i tend to get VERY obsessive over things :P I go into massive phases with one thing for months, it annoys people sometimes...

I have a new theme. <3 But I didn't make it since I suck at making themes of real life people. ;_;

Anyway, you should see me. I get OVERLY obsessed with anime and it's rare for me to obsess over things in real life, but as you can see, it's one of those rare occurences that I'm actually obsessed with Alice Cullen from the Twilight Series. XD

 

[Amaruuk]

Today i was in the learning support part of my school, in a "meeting" with other autistic kids (i was one of three, but now the schools starting to fill with them XD) They seem to be okay.

And yes, i tend to get VERY obsessive over things :P I go into massive phases with one thing for months, it annoys people sometimes...

That's about how long mine go for, though when I was much younger they could be a year or more long. As I've said, my obsessions are the number one reason people don't want to be around me, and it's ten times worse if my obsession is an actual person I know, like a crush. This is the most dire disadvantage of AS when it comes to relationships or even friendships. People can get used to the idea that I can't eat most foods, but I have driven plenty folks away with my obsessions, and what's worse is that the extent of the problem is relatively unchanged from childhood.

There is a guy in one of my classes this quarter, and after class has ended me, him, and the teacher tend to linger around and chit-chat about stuff. Though the class has met only about 7 times so far, I'm developing a crush on him against my will and against my best interest. I fear that having feelings for someone will interfere with my studies (it always has in the past), because I'm the type of person who can't balance her heart and her mind. My parents have never been any help with these sorts of problems, so I've always had to deal with them almost completely alone. I don't even know if the guy is single or not, and even if he was, I don't need to be in a relationship with anyone at all. What a mess... >.<;;

 

[NoBel_ToKYo ™]

That's about how long mine go for, though when I was much younger they could be a year or more long. As I've said, my obsessions are the number one reason people don't want to be around me, and it's ten times worse if my obsession is an actual person I know, like a crush. This is the most dire disadvantage of AS when it comes to relationships or even friendships. People can get used to the idea that I can't eat most foods, but I have driven plenty folks away with my obsessions, and what's worse is that the extent of the problem is relatively unchanged from childhood.

There is a guy in one of my classes this quarter, and after class has ended me, him, and the teacher tend to linger around and chit-chat about stuff. Though the class has met only about 7 times so far, I'm developing a crush on him against my will and against my best interest. I fear that having feelings for someone will interfere with my studies (it always has in the past), because I'm the type of person who can't balance her heart and her mind. My parents have never been any help with these sorts of problems, so I've always had to deal with them almost completely alone. I don't even know if the guy is single or not, and even if he was, I don't need to be in a relationship with anyone at all. What a mess... >.<;;

Oh boy, can i indenitfy XD

My last "crush" was kind of like this. (was a couple of years ago)

We were in a few classes together, and you know, when you're about.. 12 and you have obsessive tendencies, things tend to get..well, obsessive. needless to say, This ended with her hating me (We did make up) But I've never been the same after it, and took me a year to get over it. Thankfully i did, and i don't really obsess with people anymore! Or at least crushes and people you're willing to go into a relationship with. XD I find, that with autism, if you try, you CAN override some of your symptoms. It is truly a test of time, and is probably why me, among others have less noticeable symptoms now.

And i can relate to holding off relationships, too. Whenever i'm in a situation that's similar, i try to make myself levelheaded. Don't let my emotions decide which action i should take. ^__^ Maybe you'll work something out that's best for you, Kinarii ^^

My obsessions tend to be hobbies nowadays, thankfully

By the way, i made a social group called "A.S.D". If you yourself have an A.S disorder, or a family member does, feel free to join :)

 

[Soul Eater]

I have a total hatred for Meatloaf. The very thought of it, makes me gag. My mom can never get me to eat it.

Sweet, I'll definitely consider joining. :3 It'll make things easier so we can create our own topics. ^///^

 

[NoBel_ToKYo ™]

Okay :) I began the first discussion on the group, which you'll find on the clubs part of my/Misayu's profile. Read the post, know the rules, run wild. ^_^

Lol i personally like a lot of foods, but i am extremely picky with things like olives and mayonaisse, which i can only eat under certain conditions.

 

[Reck]

I once knew someone who was mentally ill. I used to make fun of him in 7th grade... But... I now wish i had never picked on him... There is someone in my class now who has a mental disabled and I'm doing all i can to be nice to him and keep others from picking on him... As for those of you out there(i know your out there) who pick on people like this... shame on you. What would you do i the tables were turned?