Well, there has been a lot of things I've wanted to be in my life, so I'll list them here.
When I was five I really, really, really wanted to be an astronaut for whatever reason. Now I don't like the idea of floating in space and being so far away from Earth, and anyway I'm not smart enough to become one.
At around eight I definitely wanted to be a football player for the obvious reasons. Simply put, I'm not athletic at all, and though I don't think myself as a bad player I'm nowhere near good enough to be at a professional level.
When I was like twelve I think I wanted to be a manga artist. I had been drawing mostly manga stuff all my life because of being exposed to mostly anime and Pokemon all my childhood so I was pretty decent at it, but now I'm not as serious on drawing itself, so that dream isn't really my preference anymore.
Last year I wanted to be an architect, simply because I realised I wanted to do something creative when I get older, and once a professor from Oxford Brookes came into my high school to give us a speech on architecture, which I attended. That gave me more of a push to pursue this profession, but though it is still a serious option for me right now I feel like designing buildings and such isn't really what I want to do for most of my life. I want to do something creative, but I'm now having feelings that I should instead look more towards a more secure path.
And that results to today. Now I don't really know what I want to do. Before I had such exact dreams of what I wanted to be, but now I'm struggling more than ever. The way I'm headed I will be doing a Computer Science degree, which I guess I wouldn't mind doing, but I still have doubts in my head about that too. I want to do something creative like a graphic designer or an illustrator, but I'm scared that I won't earn enough to be "doing well", if that makes sense. In the end I guess all I want is a secure job where I enjoy what I'm doing and get paid well for it... but then again, that's just about nearly everyone's dream.
This post turned out a lot longer than I anticipated lol