Because I'm starting to feel pressured. My mom is now beginning to realize how sick she actually is, now bearing a kidney disease, she does not want to talk anymore about what we should do after I graduate, or her life for the matter.
School is beginning to annoy me, with the disorganization we have. Though we are sharing the building with a residential school for immigrants.
And finally time. Y'know, one of my older buddies told me that when you get older, you begin to realize how little time you had. I took no attention to him, told him that wouldn't happen to me.
However, it is. Things I've wanted to do are beginning to not happen, I'm putting things such as learning Japanese off, etc. It's so freaking frustrating that I want to start a bath, and sit in it until this all blows over.