Oh I'm sorry to hear about your computer, I hope everything's up and running again! I've been away from mine most of August and September, and I am not very good at browsing the forums on mobile. ^^; It's good to have some breathing room in order to attend the GT! I couldn't host Who's That Pokémon this year but there are plenty of trivia-themed games to enjoy! I really love the creative ones, it's nice to see all the ideas people bring. Which events might you try?
That's how I feel as well, I can handle myself a bit better when I've adjusted to someone's presence, but the anxiety does make me very self-conscious and I fixate on my fears. I was homeschooled all my life and grew up in the country due to family life circumstances, so I never quite learned how to integrate into a group, and I was never one for mingling or small-talk haha. Which is okay! I've always been quiet/introverted, only now I'm beginning to accept that, same as you. Sometimes I do still envy those who are outgoing and quick to fit in, but it's much less than it was in my teenage years. How did you start changing your own perspective about that in order to gain acceptance?