I've fallen in love many times. I've made numerous and countless mistakes in the past with both my crushes and in my relationships. Many mistakes that I've regretted and many mistakes that I think I was better off using as a tool to learn from.
In my opinion, there are two kinds of love. The type that can be labeled for friends, where there is a certain level of care and importance that is given to a friend. Someone you want to be in your life but not in a romantic/intimate level. The same can be applied to relatives, especially maternal or paternal. I guess there is some intimacy with parents but not like in a romantic way. More like how a son loves to be with his mother, or a girl likes to be with their father. They feel comfortable and safe under their protection.
The other kind, is the one that is both dealing with importance, and intimacy. Someone who is important in your life, that you cannot live without, yet there is another level to it. You want to feel that person's touch, their warmth. Something about it feels more comforting than any other person. A certain level of attraction that you want more of and can never get tired of. Someone you never get tired of in general and someone who makes you happy, someone with common interests, someone who is patient with you, someone who you can be intimate with on a romantic level and not feel discomfort.
Loving someone is what I described in my paragraph with friendships and family. Being in love is more like what I describe in my paragraph about romance.
It'd be nice to fall in love with someone again, but shit happens and life spirals down. I just pick myself back up, dust myself off, and march forward. If I ever fall in love with someone again, maybe it'll be for the better. Or maybe it won't be worth it. Who knows? Love is a powerful thing. I love my family and my close friends more than anything in the world. However being in love is not a bad future for me. Oh well. We'll see.
