CHAPTER 7.5 - FEAR THE BEGINNING PT.2
TW: Nightmares / Physical & Verbal Abuse of a Child / Child Neglect / Thoughts of Suicide / Pyrophobia
Rosa was laying on the ground, watching the stars as they peeked out in the coming night's sky. She hadn't been contacted by the Sisterhood, or the Camarilla she was supposed to be meeting up with in Hulbury. As far as she was concerned, there was no need to hurry off anywhere. She didn't know how long these moments would last, so she was hoping to make the best of the time she had.
She looked over at the Toxel which was sitting next to Zorro, wrapped up in his vines as the Grass-type rubbed their cheeks against each other. The Toxel seemed to have slowly been growing accustomed to them, losing that initial irritation towards Zorro's constant affection fairly quickly with all things considered. But Rosa still wasn't certain what she should name the Pokemon.
She'd been watching him for several hours each day, letting him travel outside of his ball for as long as she could since she didn't have to worry about him causing any trouble while out in the wild of the Route they were on. She used this time to study him and take little notes at each opportunity. She hadn't put this much thought into the names of her other Pokemon, but then again, she didn't have anything else to compare them to. She'd captured the same Pokemon that someone else had for the second time now, and she wanted to be sure that whatever she decided on was fitting and unique for him.
Maybe something from one of Simon's metal albums? It seemed to be something she always went back to when she was uncertain on things like this. There was also a sort of comfort there, remembering back to those first days of living with him when he was so eagerly showing off his collection… she could still recall the weight of the records and the smell of the cardboard sleeves.
She started running through some of the pictures in her mind, imagining the stack of plates in her hands as she shuffled through them. "But what were their names?" She whispered to herself, recalling the names of the bands but none of their members. "What was someone he would always talk about… what part of the band was 'hype', as he'd say? Maybe…" she opened her eyes slowly, turning to look over at the Toxel who seemed to be completely disinterested in everything going on around him at the moment. "Ozzy?"
The Toxel turned to look at Rosa, meeting her gaze before shrugging as best as he could while being restrained by his new brother. "Tox."
Rosa smiled and nodded, turning her gaze back to the stars. "Ozzy the Toxel… yeah, I guess that works."
She kept her eyes open, continuing to remember the time she'd spent with Simon up until the start of their journey. They'd been together for three years… she needed to apologize at some point. Because of her, his entire life was turned upside down. But because of him… she was able to live, at the very least. Because of everyone, she-
"Tox!" Ozzy cried out, tumbling over Zorro as he frantically started to crawl away.
Rosa looked over at the two Pokemon, ready to recommend that they calm down and get ready for bed. They'd been so prone to roughhousing with each other since Ozzy joined, but this was different. They weren't playing - they were running. Rosa pushed herself up quickly, feeling her heart starting to pick up its pace as she looked around for whatever it was that had set her Pokemon off.
Wyatt had quickly jumped up, taking on a defensive stance in front of the other Pokemon as it placed itself in front of the creeping shadow. Rosa looked up at the sky, catching the last glimpses of the sun as it set over the horizon. With each passing second, the shadow grew longer, reaching out towards her and her Pokemon. She shook her head, fumbling for her pokeballs before recalling each of her party save for her starter.
"Wyatt, use Disarming Voice!" She choked out, not sure exactly where or
what he should be aiming for. But that didn't matter. They had to get away from this shadow, whatever it was.
"Louuuud!" The Pokemon replied, kicking up a cloud of dust as he started to stomp his feet and scream at the top of his lungs.
The sound lasted for only a second before it was cut off by the shadow. The darkness surrounded Wyatt, and then quickly overtook Rosa as she turned to run away. She turned her head, feeling a cold presence hidden in the void. Rosa moved her hands up slowly, feeling as if she were moving through a heavy syrup as it became harder to keep her eyes open. She turned her head back, catching a glimpse of a crimson smile just before her eyes closed against her will.
"No… not again," she whispered to the darkness as she fell against the ground.
Rosa's eyes slowly peeled open, assaulted by the rays of light that creeped through her window. She yawned and stretched, wincing at the pain which encompassed her body.
'Wh-what?' she thought, continuing to wince as she got up off of the bed roll on the hardwood floor. She tried to reach towards her back where the pain seemed to be most concentrated, but for some reason her body wouldn't move. 'What?' she thought again, this time a little more excited.
Her head turned instantly, jarring the girl as her vision readjusted to the sudden change. 'What the heck is going on?' she screamed out, but her lips wouldn't move.
Rosa turned back towards the stacks of clothes on the other side of the room, quickly falling to her knees as she scooted over towards them. The girl hurriedly shuffled through pre-arranged outfits, her pace quickening as the sound of footsteps slowly became apparent coming from outside her door.
"No, no, no," she whispered.
Her voice was a slightly higher pitch than what she'd become accustomed to over the years, startling her as she heard it. If it weren't for the feeling of her lips moving as the words came out, she'd have expected there to be someone else in the room with her- barren as it was.
Rosa quickly pulled on her underwear, struggling to slide a pair of sweatpants up over her bottom before the door to her room was abruptly slammed open. The girl threw herself on the ground, prostrating herself as she inched closer to the person who'd just entered her room. She tried to look up, hoping to see whoever it was so that she could at least confirm her suspicions… but just as with the other instances this morning, she didn't seem to be in control.
The silence lasted for what seemed like an eternity, feeling the cool wind from the open door as it blew gently over her back, she started to somewhat understand the situation she was in. This
was her room, and this
was her, albeit… some odd years ago. She still wasn't quite certain of when exactly, but judging from the pain on her body, and the fear she felt when the person came into the room…
The young Rosa closed her eyes, pressing her forehead against the wood. "Good morning, Mother."
'This can't be real… it's just a dream,' she thinks, considering if it's possible to just will yourself out of a dream. She's never really known when she was dreaming before, so this moment was so… surreal. On top of the fact that this was something she'd actually been through, and not just a bastardization of the events by her own subconscious trying to beat up on her as well… she
really didn't want to be here, or to have to experience any of this ever again.
"You ungrateful bitch." Her mother dropped the words on her in a harsh monotone as she slapped her hand with an unseen item that made a whooshing sound.
Rosa tried to look up, but still couldn't manage to do anything of her own free will. But even without looking up, she knew what the woman had. It was a switch. In an instant, years of burning pain rekindled themself across her body as she remembered what it felt like to earn a lashing from her mother. The young Rosa she was trapped in slowly peeled open her eyes, letting her get a good look at herself for the first time since coming into this nightmare. It was just as she'd remembered… seeing that her arms were covered in marks, presumably from the lashings she'd earned from countless times before.
"Are you only going to practice prostrating yourself or are you going to be useful for something
else for once in your pathetic life?"
Rosa could feel her skin go clammy. Even after all this time, she couldn't get herself to stand up to her. She screamed at her younger self, urging her to do anything except just sit there and take what her mother kept dishing out to her. She tried to move her mouth, even if just to make a witty comeback at her, but even that was asking too much. She was slowly coming to terms with the fact that it seemed she was just along for the ride in… whatever this was.
"No mother," her voice was soft, and quiet. She was still weak… too weak to do anything for herself. After all, this day wasn't all that long ago. This person grovelling at the foot of their parent was still her, even if she'd been away from it for years. These moments are what stuck with her throughout every day. These moments are the things she would never be able to escape from. "I'll start scrubbing the halls in just a minute after I-"
Whack!
The young girl winced and pursed her lips, feeling the switch wrap against the curvature of her bare back before it retreated. Rosa felt an anger welling up deep inside of her, wishing that she could force this body to move just enough to tear that switch from her hands. If there had been even a single day where she wasn't humiliated in this way as a child, then maybe… But this was her life. If these moments had passed and healed over like her bruises and scars, then maybe she could still be happy. But it seemed that some wounds never healed.
"I don't want to hear excuses." Her mother's voice was still flat, taking no enjoyment in the abuse of her child but not hinting towards any feeling of remorse or disgust either. "The day is dwindling quickly. I have class this afternoon for the pupils that actually want to be shrine
maidens." Her mother stepped towards the door, indicated by the creaking of the barren floor beneath them. Rosa looked up, meeting the glare of the woman she had once called Sensei before quickly planting her forehead back against the floor again. Her mother paused for a moment, boring holes into her daughter with her gaze. "Make sure you're presentable when you bring yourself to the shrine later. You know the image I have to maintain."
"Yes Mother. Thank you, Mother."
Rosa waited for several minutes, remaining in her position until long after the footsteps had faded. She reached around to her back, her lips quivering as she traced along the still burning outline of the switch.
Her mother wasn't always like this. If Rosa could have sighed and shaken her head at that moment, she would have. If she could have talked to her Mother with the little strength she had now to back herself, she would have. But, she could not. Whatever
this was, it was not meant for her to interject herself now into her past. She simply sat back and watched as things played out…
exactly as she had remembered them.
Young Rosa sat in front of her only real piece of furniture - outside of her bedroll - and stared at her reflection in the mirror in front of her. Her arms and chest were covered in welts and bruises from these repeated mornings, and so every day her routine was the same. No matter what time she woke up, her mother would always be there waiting to discipline her.
The girl dipped her fingers into some lotion and began to trace the lines on her skin, covering each welt before rubbing it in. She opened one of the drawers, pulling out a number of products that she set out on the small work area in front of the mirror and began to mix them with her brush. She started at her neck, applying a heavy coat of the mixture on anything visible above her shoulders before moving to her arms.
Even if something so disgusting had to become her routine, it was the only option for the young girl. Even the Rosa of this morning knew that. She'd tried crying out for help before, but her mother… she'd already won most of the city over to her side. Simon and his family were her only solace… and she was thankful for that. Though the boy never got to see the extent of what she went through because of this routine of acceptance and coverup, she was sure he knew. Somehow… he knew.
The girl finished covering part of her bruises, leaving alone whatever would be covered by the clothes she was about to put on. She didn't want to earn additional lashings for wasting time trying to make herself pretty. And besides, it got uncomfortable having that much makeup on under her clothes - especially when it got hot out, since the lotion would make her feel all sticky and gross.
Rosa took the time of the routine to look around her room as much as she could from the reflection in the mirror. It wasn't anything to gloat about… no other furniture, only one window, and piles of folded clothes… that was all she'd had back then to call her own. And it was all held in this tiny room which was barely the size of her mother's own walk-in closet.
Young Rosa finished dressing herself, taking an additional layer of makeup which she quickly blended into her skin around the parts of her outfit that might shift while she performed her chores. She looked herself in the mirror one last time, wrapping her hair up into a small bun before putting her fingers on either side of her mouth. She pushed her lips up, forcing herself to smile for a few seconds before letting her hands fall to her side.
"I love my life," she whispered as quietly as possible, clenching her fists.
Rosa made her way through the estate, having grabbed a bucket and a few towels she turned into the kitchen and opened a cabinet, pulling the floor cleaning solution from within. She squirted the bottle into the bucket for several seconds, building rings up the sides before putting the solution back where she'd found it. She reached up to the faucet, turning the hot water on as far as it would go before sticking her hand down into the stream.
"Cold… cold… cold… warrrrm, warmer, warm, hot…" she kept her hand there, wincing at the heat of the water as it started to steam. "Yeah… that's hot," she whispered, slowly clenching her fist under the stream. "I'll have to turn the heater up a little more later."
Rosa slowly took her hand out of the water, turning it off completely before twisting the hose onto the nozzle. She quickly put the hot water back on and dropped the other end of the hose into the bucket, making her way to a nearby stool as she waited for the bucket to fill.
"Hey, Rosie!" A young Simon swung into the room, gripping at the trim along the wall to keep himself from sliding past the door. "Whatcha up to!"
Rosa smiled gently, turning to look at the boy. He always found a way into the estate somehow. It seemed like he enjoyed the idea of running around and avoiding her mom… almost like he'd made it into a sort of game. "Just chores."
Simon shook his head, kicking his legs out high as he stepped towards her. "Boooo." he smiled, plopping down on the floor next to her. "So, we gonna go watch the stars again tonight?"
Rosa nodded. "Just like every night, Si."
Simon smiled, throwing his arms out wide. "I'll come get you later then, alright?"
Rosa nodded, leaning in with her shoulder which she tapped against his chest. "Be careful… you've got to start coming later, too. Mom's been checking in on me more lately… I don't know why, but-"
From what she could remember, it
had gotten worse around this time. Simon started having to come later and later into the night, and their trips up to the burned tower became shorter and shorter as a consequence. It just kept spiraling after her father was announced to no longer be with them… and as much as she dreaded his coming home each time, it always came as a sort of relief. At least with him, she knew what she was getting in to.
"Gotcha!" Simon replied, giving her a thumbs-up as he shot to his feet. "Now I just gotta get back to my own chores before dad realizes I left." He sticks out his tongue and then spins on his heels, rushing out the way he came before Rosa could get in another word.
'He was cute like this… but after what happened with the house… I should have just left. If it hadn't been for me, he could have just stayed like this, forever… It's my fault he was forced to change.' She wanted so badly to tell him to just leave her alone, to not come near her anymore. She wanted him to just be a normal kid, with normal friends… it wasn't like he was unpopular - he just hung around her too often for his own good. Rumors spread in Ecruteak like wildfire, and she was a matchbox.
The day passed painfully slowly, but finally Rosa found herself looking out a nearby window towards the evening sun. She'd changed the cleaning solution in her bucket several times since she'd started her morning chores, and now the entire estate was once again spotless. She rose slowly to her feet, stretching out as she walked towards the shrine. She'd taken slightly longer than anticipated, having lost herself in thought a couple of times while scrubbing, so as she passed by the shrine she found that her mother's classes had already started.
She looked out over the garden where the shrine was located, watching as her ex-classmates practiced the movements that she'd already been forced to master. They still weren't of age to learn anything new, but… it wouldn't hurt, right? Rosa got into position, placing herself at a part of the balcony that wasn't easily visible from where the parents normally waited. The girls were already part of the way through their dances, but she knew the movements by heart, so jumping in was easy enough.
'No, stop… don't join them, please. Just go around back and change.' Rosa pleaded with herself, hoping that she could do anything to spare herself even one misfortune.
Young Rosa spun in place, and followed the steps that the other dancers were performing at the same time. After a few seconds, without realizing it she found herself out in the garden. It was only just barely, but one of the parents had caught a glimpse of her and when their eyes locked, she recognized the absolutely mortified look that had overcome them. The father pointed in her direction, prompting her to jump back towards the cover of the balcony.
Rosa quickly started walking away, hoping that she could make it across the hall before her mother managed to stop her. But… there was nothing she could do to help herself. She'd only made it a short way towards her room, when the doors in front of her slid open and then quickly shut themselves back behind the imposing figure of her mother.
"Who the hell do you think you are?" She hissed, striding sinisterly closer to Rosa. Her mother was dressed in the ceremonial kimono she wore every day to her classes, so the speed and way in which she closed the distance between them was even more off-putting than normal.
"I-I'm-" she started, starting to drop to her knees before her mother's hand found its mark across her cheek. Rosa was thrown to the ground from the impact, and the sound echoed through the hall. The girl shakily placed her hand against her cheek, feeling the warmth left behind in the impact.
"How dare you jeopardize my image like this. Go to your room, and don't come out for the rest of the night." Her mother turned, sliding open the doors in front of her before glancing over her shoulder once last time. "I teach proper young maidens, not filthy harlots. This isn't a whorehouse, it's a dance studio. I'll deal with you later before you risk my position any more with your presence, you ungrateful swine."
Her mother slammed the doors behind her, making her exit as powerful as possible. Rosa slowly moved her hand down her cheek and towards her arm, gripping her wrist as tightly as she could while she inched down the hallway towards her room. The girl swallowed the tears that she so desperately wanted to let run down her cheeks. Both Rosa's were shell-shocked, despite one of them already knowing what was going to happen.
'Don't do it… you don't have to do it, don't give up,' Rosa whispered, feeling her own nails as they dug into her wrist.
Rosa kept tightening her grip on her wrist, drawing blood from herself as her entire body shook. She let go of her arm and curled her fingers, having made it to the door of her room. She slouched against it, using the door as support as she ran her hand up her arm towards her throat. "I just can't… just let me go." She whimpered, biting her lip as she felt a single tear break free from her eye.
'I hated this… this feeling of despair. Nothing else seemed to matter - not when everything else is taken from you and you're forced to live simply because the alternative is too messy for everyone else to deal with.'
Rosa closed her eyes, feeling the weight of her hands on her own throat as she started to squeeze. She felt herself choking, struggling to breathe as her fingers dug into her neck. "I'm- Sorry-" she choked out, letting go of her own throat. "I can't even… myself, I…" she shook her head, struggling to express herself as her lip continued to quiver. She lazily pushed open the door and slinked inside, letting it remain open behind her as she crawled over to the mat she called a bed and curled up into a ball on it. "Why's it so hard to just… do
it." She whispered, clenching her hands into fists before crossing them against her chest.
What would have happened if she'd had more time? What would have happened if she'd just held her hand there a
liiittle bit longer? Could she have actually gone through with it? Was the Rosa of then strong enough to finish it? Was… the Rosa of now strong enough? If her mother was still alive, would she be? So much time had passed, but she couldn't differentiate between her personal growth and the growth she'd come into from the people around her.
Rosa peeled her eyes open. Despite having fallen asleep for a few hours, her eyes were still on fire. She sat up on the mat, looking out the window at the moon which was high in the sky. She looked around, looking for anything to help better indicate the time to her. She shook her head. Not knowing whether it was safe to go out of her room or not, she simply laid back down in bed.
Her mom was most likely still out, given that she hadn't been woken up yet. It was another night without dinner, but nothing she wasn't unaccustomed to. She made it a point to keep the house free of food, since most nights she was taken out to local restaurants by her students' families.
Having any food laying around would likely just go to waste, since Rosa wasn't allowed to cook without her mom there… It had gotten worse since her father passed - since with all the rumors that she'd spread about her daughter, nobody was going to ask why she wasn't bringing her out on the town with her. She could just pretend that Rosa didn't exist and push her to the back of all their minds with the simple notion that there was food she could have inside.
That was typically all that it took; they didn't have to be told twice, since they didn't even care to check in the first place. It was literally the least they could do to act like they were human. She sighed and remembered back to the days when things were different; when they'd happily bake cakes and fancy pastries together… back before everything-
"Hey, Rosie!" Simon whispered at her window, tapping lightly against the glass as he peeked into the room.
The girl rose slowly up from her bed, opening the window just enough to be able to see him face to face. "What's up?"
"You about ready to go? Your mom just pulled in.
"If she just pulled in, it's still too early, Si." she shook her head, closing the window slowly. "Give me like… an hour, I guess. She'll want to check in on me."
Simon stared at her through the glass for a few seconds. He looked uneasy about her reply, but there was nothing to be done. "Alright. I'll be waiting for you up on the hill."
"Promise." Rosa replied quietly, hearing the sound of the front door slamming shut. She pressed her thumb up against the glass, meeting his which had been waiting there since she closed the window. The boy smiled and disappeared from view, presumably making his way up to the meeting spot.
Several minutes went by in relative silence, accentuated by the passing echoes of banging and the scraping of nails against the walls leading up to her room. Her mother slowly pushed her door open, standing there in the entrance for several minutes before walking in, absolutely reeking of booze.
"Hey, you awake?" She asked, lumbering towards her before getting down on her knees next to Rosa. She stared at her daughter, while she stared at the wall away from her. They listened to each others' breaths as the room slowly grew warmer with the added presence in the small space. Her mother leaned in, placing her hand on the side of the girl's head before putting her lips against the back of her ear.
'No, no no. Lalalalalala think of literally anything else. Think of Simon. Think of your dad, think of literally-'
"It should have been you."
Her mother slowly pulled away, waiting to get a reaction out of the girl. The two sat once more in relative silence, broken only with the inconsistent and deep breathing of her mother. Eventually, she slowly rose to her feet and shuffled out of the room, pulling the door close behind her.
That was it. Nothing else. No goodnight, no im sorry… though she never expected either of those things to begin with. This was the only emotional breakthrough she was going to get. Instead of simply watching her from the doorway and whispering it for several minutes on end, she made sure that rosa had heard it this time.
The girl waited, quiet tears filling up her eyes the entire time. But she can't let simon see her like this. She slowly sat up, put in some eye drops, made sure her makeup was as good as she could get it in the dark - she didn't wash her face before bed because she knew they'd be meeting up and she didn't want him to worry. Not to mention the fact she hadn't intended to fall asleep to begin with.
Rosa stealthily crept out of her room, going down the hallway past the shrine dedicated to her father in a nearby room. Her mom was there, just as she always was around this time at night. She was whispering something, as per usual. When she was younger, she never really thought to listen in on what she was actually saying since she was solely focused on getting out of the house. But now… now there were two of her, technically, and for whatever reason. Now she could actually listen in, if she really wanted to.
"It didn't have to be like that, like
this," she whispered, reaching out towards the enshrined photo as she clutched at something red and yellow at her side. "It should have been
her, then we could have been happy." She paused, her words trailing off as she nudged the object sitting next to her, causing whatever was in it to slosh around. "We
could have been happy, right? If it had just stayed between us… if it were only us, if it had been
her instead… But I was weak. I was blinded by rage, and then-"
She stopped, dropping her hand from the photo as she pulled the object around in front of her. Rosa creeped by slowly, moving so painfully slow that everything was able to play out right in front of her. Even so, she remembered the fear that she felt in that moment. With each passing second where her mother wasn't speaking, she froze in place, fearing that she'd be caught the second she touched her toes to the floor. Everything was quiet - enough so that a younger Rosa had the mind to focus on her breathing in an attempt to quiet it. This proved incredibly helpful, as only a few seconds later her mother started back in on whatever ramblings she was on about now.
"I can still make this right, I promise… I'll fix this, and then
we can be happy again."
It was at this moment that a younger Rosa, not concerning herself with what the other version of her that was tagging along wanted, decided it was time to head out. Her mother was busy with whatever it was she was doing, and Rosa had someplace to be.
'Wait, this sounds… off. Why's she saying it like that? What's in that… wh-wait! No, don't leave yet, I want to hear more! I want to know-"
But she already knew. No matter how hard she tried to fight for the smallest bit of pull from herself, it was meaningless. She had no agency here, not in this time. She opened the door slowly, pulling it shut behind her before trotting off towards the burned tower.
Rosa got to the gated off remains of the burned tower, finding Simon already laying out in the nearby grass. "Hey," she called out, waving towards the boy.
"Hey," he replied, waving back without getting up. "Finally got away, huh?"
Rosa nodded, taking a seat next to the boy before laying down. The stars were out, undisturbed by the lights of the city from this far out. "It was bad tonight… she didn't just wait at the door this time. She whispered it in my ear."
Simon was quiet, most likely just mulling over what he should say. She'd told him about her mother's nightly ritual before, which is why he started bringing her out late at night. There was no telling what she was doing after Rosa fell asleep, so it was safest for her at least to be out of the house until her mom passed out. "How do you feel?"
Rosa shrugged, but stayed quiet. What she hadn't told him, was everything else that she did to her on a regular basis. He'd caught glimpses of her mom smacking her before, but he had no idea about the switch or anything else she felt like swapping it out for. "I'm fine. As long as you're here, I'll always be fine." She looked over at the boy, putting on her finest smile as she grabbed hold of his hand.
Simon nodded his head, wrapping his fingers in hers before inching closer to her. The two stared up at the stars for what seemed like forever, feeling their hands slowly growing sweatier with the passing minutes - but neither wanted to acknowledge it. Things were fine like this. Rosa wished there was something that could be done about her mother, but Simon wasn't the person to bring into the situation.
He was one of her only two friends at the moment, since everyone else had been told to ditch her by their parents over the past year or two. Everything else had fallen away, but Simon was… stable. He was the rock she was anchored to, on a shore where the tide constantly tugged her out further into the sea.
"I got some new records," he said quietly, already knowing the answer to his own question before he even finished asking it. "If you wanted to come over sometime and listen…"
Rosa shook her head, not looking over at the boy. "Mother wouldn't let me - you know that."
"Right… sorry."
The two sat in silence once more, simply enjoying their time together as they watched the stars.
'Please, you have to go back. Tonight is… tonight…' Rosa wanted to scream. She'd only just started to realize what today was. It had started with small clues, that had all built up to this fleeting moment with Simon. She could already smell the smoke, recognizing it better now despite her younger self failing to notice. 'You can still change things… just, please… go back.'
"Hey, what's that?" Simon asked, sitting up as he pointed out over the city. "It looks like… a bonfire? But there shouldn't be any festivals yet."
"No, if there was a festival then mom wouldn't have gone out…" Rosa shook her head, getting up and walking towards the edge of the clearing as she looked out over the city. "What is… n-no."
The girl's face instantly went white as she squinted against the light of the raging fire sitting in contrast against the dark of night. She shook her head again, mouthing 'no' repeatedly as she shakily started to walk back down towards the city.
"Rosa? What's going on?"
"That's where… that's the estate. That's where
mom is."
The two started to rush back, passing by the city's fire station as their men started suiting up and collected their Pokemon. They passed by curious neighbors, and elderly townfolk too curious for their own good.
Rosa fell to her knees, finding herself directly in front of the estate. The sky was brightly illuminated with the light of the fire. "No… why?" She choked the words out, feeling the heat of the flames as the wind carried the embers and lashed them across her skin.
"Rosa, I'm sorry!" Simon cried out, sitting on his heels just in front of her. "I didn't know that… I didn't know! I don't know what to do… I'm so sorry… Rosa, please!"
The girl's face twisted and contorted as she struggled to fight the pit that had formed in her chest. Her shoulders inched towards each other as she trembled, rubbing her hands across her cheeks as she tried to figure out what to do with herself.
"Look, it's that demon girl." One of the neighbors she'd passed on the way here had stopped a short distance away, finding themselves with nothing better to do than to gossip in the face of the catastrophe before them
"Did she start the fire?" A parent of one of her old dancemates responded, seemingly disinterested in the possibility of her mother still being trapped within.
"With her mother still inside?"
"I wouldn't put it past the little slut. She has been getting closer with the Dansen boy since her father passed, after all."
"Oh, you don't think… somebody should warn Martin - just in case he doesn't know. I'm surprised her mother didn't say anything."
"Shut up…" Simon whispered, gritting his teeth as he clenched his fists. "Shut up! What do you know! She's not like that!"
"Tch, poor kid. If I was getting that kind of treatment when I was his age, I wouldn't know what to do with myself either."
Rosa clenched at her chest, feeling the pit within it grow heavier. "If it had just been…" she choked on the smoke as it rose, covering her mouth with her other hand as she leaned over and planted her forehead against the ground. "If it had just been me, then…"
"That's not true, Rosa! You had nothing to do with this!" Simon cried out, wrapping his arms around her.
The two watched as the Water-type Pokemon and firefighters they'd passed on their way here finally arrived at the scene. The Pokemon started blasting the house with their Water Gun attacks, quickly quelling the raging flames enough for the suited men and women to inch their way in through the door.
Several minutes passed with nothing to show for it except the salvaged charcoal of the building's once beautiful wooden exterior. A few moments later, one of the firefighters rushed back out, covering his mouth before falling to the ground in a puddle of their own vomit. "W-we need a stretcher! I don't know, it might be too late though!"
Rosa's heart sank as she lurched forward, unable to ascertain what it was that she felt in the moment. The possibility that her mother was dead suddenly became very real to her. Despite all that she'd been through with her since she found out her father's secret, she still loved her mom… even if sometimes she wished she didn't have to be here with her, she never would have wished for her to die.
"It looks like everything else is burnt up in there." Another firefighter called out as he exited the estate, making his way directly over to the first one that had come out. The second firefighter patted the first on the back and shook his head. "These things happen, kid. This won't be the worst of it, either. She supposedly had a kid, so we'll have to-"
"I-I'm here." Rosa whispered, inching forward as she pulled free from Simon's comforting grasp. "I'm the daughter." The second firefighter turned to look at the girl, and then at the crowd that was forming before glancing back at the building.
"See, I told you she did it."
"For sure. If it wasn't her, she'd have been inside too. How'd she know to leave the house tonight if this was an accident?"
Rosa clenched her fists, still unable to process her emotions over what was happening. "S-so you found her?" She asked, unknowingly making herself look incredibly suspicious in the way that she'd worded her question.
The firefighter stared at her for a few seconds and then nodded. "Yeah, we've got a few guys still inside making sure the fires don't eat away any more than they already have… but I'd say it's too little too late. We checked a few of the other rooms before we found her… everything was gone, as far we could tell."
Rosa winced, bunching up the fabric of her pants into her fists as she tried to think about what was most important to her from inside. "Did you… did she have a pendant on?"
The firefighter furrowed his brow at her and then turned away, getting on his radio. "Hey, Timone, you got a pendant in there?"
A few seconds passed of radio silence, before another man called back. "Uhh, y-yeah. We got a pendant here, but I don't think it's going to be too easy to retrieve."
'He sounds more uncomfortable than I remembered. Then again, I was pretty out of it… and anyone would be pretty messed up if they were told to retrieve it from
that.'
"So? Can you get it back here or not?"
"Well sir, it's kind of… they're like… fused, I guess? Melded, stuck, whatever. If I try to pry it out from there, then it'll have… is it really necessary to have it right now?"
The firefighter looked down at Rosa and then motioned towards her. "Yay or nay? If you leave it, I'm sure that the coroner will be able to get it back to you in the next few weeks. But if you take it back now it'll-"
"I want it now."
The firefighter shook his head and then got back on the radio, rehashing the girl's desire for the pendant. Several minutes passed by, before another firefighter exited the building with a soot covered chain in his hands. He quickly passed the pendant over to Rosa, not wanting anything more to do with it after what he'd just gone through.
'Just… don't turn it over. Not yet, at least. Let Simon clean it for you. That's all you have to do.'
So far everything had gone just about as she'd remembered it, so she wasn't too worried about herself actually flipping the pendant over now. But still, it was more to comfort herself than anything else. She stepped back, watching as two men rushed in with the gurney dangling between them. It wouldn't be long now. She remembered watching the body being moved from the house to the ambulance, but even then she hadn't actually looked at it. It wasn't her mother, anyways. This was just…
A corpse. Or what remained of it. It was so badly burnt that it was barely recognizable as a person now. Rosa took a few steps forward, trying to do what she felt was most natural in the moment. She had to tell her mom goodbye, since she'd probably never see her again. But no matter how much she wanted to be polite, she couldn't get the words to come out of her mouth.
She wanted to scream, to cry, to slam her fists down on the gurney and shatter whatever was left of her mother. But all she could do was stare with quivering lips. Thankfully, there was a second Rosa who was a little more mature, and who had been expecting this exact scenario for roughly the past hour.
Her eyes darted across the body, taking in as many details as she could. The burning was worse around her face and chest, but her arms and legs seemed to still be in relatively early stages despite the severity of the accident. But what really caught her attention was the molten plastic stuck to her stomach. It was two-tone; red and yellow, and relatively small in size. Though, as far as she knew, red and yellow plastic only really meant one of two things.
Either she really cared about some stolen condiments bottles, or this
was arson. She thought back to how her mother had been acting through the day and into the night, and then ran some of the things she'd been saying through her head on repeat. Slowly, the pieces started to fit themselves together.
'It was supposed to be
us, for the sake of
them.'
"I'm so sorry…" she whispered, remembering how hard it had been for her early in the day. But now… what did she have left? She was alone; an orphan. Ostracized by everyone around her because of the rumors of a woman who was now laying dead in front of her. "It should have been… I should have made it be me."
She slowly moved her hand up her arm, trailing her fingertips across her skin as she reached her throat. It had been so hard to make that final push earlier, but what was there holding her back now? Going out like this would leave no more mess, since she had nobody to leave behind. She wrapped her fingers around her throat, slowly tightening her grip as she felt the points of her nails beginning to dig into her neck.
"No!" Simon cried out, tackling the girl to the ground. "I won't let you just leave me like that!"
"Don't be selfish," Rosa whispered, quickly moving her hand back to her throat with a newfound determination. "What reason is there to stick around now? I was a burden until the end… at least let me decide whether or not to continue down that path."
"No! I won't! I love spending time with you Rosa, so just… just come live with me! Please, I promise it'll work out! I'll sleep on the sofa, you can have my room - heck, my parents already love you despite what everyone tells them!"
"Exactly… everyone already tells them so many things about me. I ran the risk of ruining my mom's reputation every day… I couldn't spit on your kindness like that, not if it meant ruining your reputation as well."
"Stop being stupid!" Simon cried out, "I don't care what people think about me! I don't care what they think about my parents! And I sure as hell don't care about what they think about
us! I love you, Rosa! So please, just let me do what I want… one last time."
Rosa frowned, her face contorting as she fought the urge to cry in the face of her friend. "I'm not-"
Rosa shot up, finding herself back in control of her own body. However, she quickly found that she was not where she'd fallen asleep at. Not to mention, she felt unusually weak after that whole sequence of events. She quickly felt around for her pokeballs, something she hadn't been able to do since she'd fallen asleep.
"One, two, three… five. Five. Five? Where is-" she started, turning to see Wyatt in the midst of a night terror of his own. The Pokemon was thrashing about, whimpering as he flailed about wildly. "Wyatt, Wyatt! It's okay, you're fine, you can wake up." she cooed softly, rubbing her palm against the Pokemon's ears.
The Pokemon slowly calmed down, but his eyes remained closed. It seemed whatever demons he was fighting had passed with her touch. She dug around in her pocket, pulling out her pokedex to check the time.
"You can't be serious." She whispered, rubbing her eyes before checking the date once again. There was no mistaking it. She'd been asleep for nearly two whole days. She was stuck in that nightmare for nearly three times longer than it had taken to get through it.
But… why did she have that dream? If she was just there to go along with the ride, why was she able to hear things she hadn't before? There had to be an explanation… but, at the very least, she did get some answers to something else that had been plaguing her for years.
It was her mother - she'd started the fire. It
was arson, just like the police reports had said it was, but now she was certain of the culprit. And, worse than that… she
was supposed to be in that fire too. Her mother had started it after making sure she was sound asleep, and only after making sure she
knew that it was her fault that the fire had to happen to begin with. At least, that was what she'd gathered from piecing it all together as she was now.
Rosa started looking around, seeing her belongings scattered about haphazardly. At the very least, whoever had put her under was considerate enough to not make things harder on her than necessary. She sighed out of relief, simply because that just meant she didn't have to go out using Ranger Scout tracking that she'd not utilized since she was five or six in order to track down her stuff.
"But what is that thing? That smile… is it a Pokemon? Or is it... " She shook her head. "There's not enough to go off of yet."
She opened her notebook, finding a blank page towards the end of it. She started writing out what she did know about her attacker, hoping that she'd find some time to check out a library or just be lucky enough to find a helpful old man along the way. This was the second time she'd been approached by the same entity, after all.
- Red Smile
White wispy head
Controls darkness???
Blueish eyes I think?
Hypnosis
Are the nightmares part of its power or is that something else?
Good or bad? Definitely leaning towards bad, but still not enough to know
She still didn't know if this was some malevolent passing Pokemon, or whatever Priscilla had sent to keep tabs on her. Regardless, it was still far too powerful for her to be doing anything against alone. She was at its mercy, for the time being. She had to get stronger… they all did.
For now though, she felt entirely too tired to be doing anything productive. Maybe…. A little nap would be useful.