I had the strangest nightmare last night that bolted me out of my bed at 6 in the morning. It was so weird. I was in a doctors office, and this boy from school was eating a steak sandwich with mayo and ketchup. He offered me a piece, then he said he broke up with his gf so we went in his....car and drove...somewhere? We kissed and agreed to be bf ad gf. Then we were in gym class and this OTHER boy was singing to me in the sweetest voice, and we kissed and agreed to be bf and gf. Then the gym teacher offered us mayo and ketchup packets, and the other guy I was previously sharing the steak sandwich with broke down and cried. Then we were practicing for the school play and somehow I got a lead as Donna Sheridan in Mama Mia, and we were practicing the part of the play where Donna meets the potential fathers for the first time and two of the fathers were the two guys I made out with and we messed up the scene. Then I was pacing around my school hallways questioning a lot of things about life, TONS of things about life, and then I woke up scared out of my mind.
Okay, i'm a girl in rl, but i've been questioning my sexuality lately so it was a very awkward (and to me scary) nightmare.
I don't want to go back to school anymore afraid to see those two guys. I mean they're both taken in rl, but I know them both well, so until I recover from mental stuff, I just want to stay out of school.
Speaking of Mama Mia, the school play (which is a big deal in my school) was SUPPOSED to be this weekend, but it was POSTPONED until further notice, so oh well.
And NO I was NEVER in the play to begin with NOR do I want to. I don't even want to be in the back stage crew (which I was considering) anymore cause of that nightmare.
