Melody
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My initial goal when I joined PC was to make as many friends as possible and learn to be more comfortable with socializing with people in general. I've always been a very introverted person so I joined PC to help myself break free of that habit. So naturally I do have some high goals.
My secondary goal is to learn how to lead. I know I've got intelligence enough to do so, and I'm a very compassionate person who is also capable of doing what needs to be done, but I still need some more confidence in myself by proving myself as a capable leader here. To me, PC the way I train myself for social interaction. By immersing myself among younger people I not only learn tolerance, but I also learn things I didn't learn during childhood/adolescence. It's often said that kids can be brutally honest and I actually like that, because most adults are too afraid to point out your faults because they fear the consequences. I generally have a very large amount of respect for each staff member unless they do something to lose that respect.
As a newbie, I seriously saw members like Forest_Grovyle as the kind of person I wanted to be like. To this day, I still want to be that sort of kind and welcoming person, and I think I'm getting closer to it now.
Note: Spoiler within Spoiler.
It may seem like a harsh standard to hold myself to, but I wont see myself as a proper leader unless I make staff, or get told by every member of upper staff that I'm deserving of it (But I've got to seriously believe they mean it).
I seriously couldn't give two hoots about the power or fame attached to being staff. In fact, I'm a bit unsure if I can handle it. But I know I must try and master my own fears and flaws or else I wont amount to anything. I could honesty live with being on staff for just one day so long as I was picked using the same standards used to pick permanent mods/staff members.
Staff:
I know that it'salmost taboo to mention dreams of being staff here at PC, But, I'm only human. I'd never dream of asking for it or demanding it. In fact, if I sensed any insincerity or feelings that I didn't really earn the position in the Person/Group delivering the news of my being chosen I'd reject the offer on the spot out of respect for the staff.
And even if I accepted it, I'd be a little wary at first and I'd probably resign if I felt the staff as a whole resented my appointment.
I sincerely apologize for going off on this tangent, I know this can be a touchy subject especially with staffers but hey, this thread is meant to discuss forum goals in general.
Sure, being a staff member is a goal for me...but it's really only an optional goal. I fully understand that it's likely that just achieving my primary goal of making friends can boost my confidence enough to know I can handle whatever life throws at me. Already, I'm much more confident in myself than I was in '04 or '07. I've learned so much not only from PC but from being online and interacting with people in general.
Maybe I am too harsh on myself...especially by setting such ambitious goals. But I can't help it. I have to challenge myself. It's just part of my character.
I cant help but want to better myself and learn and experience as much as I possibly can. I want to be able to live life without fearing fear. I want to be rid of my shyness and doubt in myself because I know that if I don't address the problem that it will only serve to hinder me.
I definitely commend everyone for not pulling any punches. So far everyone has been brutally honest with me for the most part, and it's made me a better person so far. I may be a little stubborn, especially when critique is delivered less than politely, but if they are indeed right I eventually see it and work to correct the problem, if one does indeed exist. I came to PC to live, learn and enjoy myself while doing so. So far I've been able to do all three for the most part. Sure, there's likely to be rough patches and disagreements and whatnot. That's just par for the course really. When it comes down to it, I really and honestly love PC.
My secondary goal is to learn how to lead. I know I've got intelligence enough to do so, and I'm a very compassionate person who is also capable of doing what needs to be done, but I still need some more confidence in myself by proving myself as a capable leader here. To me, PC the way I train myself for social interaction. By immersing myself among younger people I not only learn tolerance, but I also learn things I didn't learn during childhood/adolescence. It's often said that kids can be brutally honest and I actually like that, because most adults are too afraid to point out your faults because they fear the consequences. I generally have a very large amount of respect for each staff member unless they do something to lose that respect.
As a newbie, I seriously saw members like Forest_Grovyle as the kind of person I wanted to be like. To this day, I still want to be that sort of kind and welcoming person, and I think I'm getting closer to it now.
Note: Spoiler within Spoiler.
Spoiler:
It may seem like a harsh standard to hold myself to, but I wont see myself as a proper leader unless I make staff, or get told by every member of upper staff that I'm deserving of it (But I've got to seriously believe they mean it).
I seriously couldn't give two hoots about the power or fame attached to being staff. In fact, I'm a bit unsure if I can handle it. But I know I must try and master my own fears and flaws or else I wont amount to anything. I could honesty live with being on staff for just one day so long as I was picked using the same standards used to pick permanent mods/staff members.
Staff:
Spoiler:
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And even if I accepted it, I'd be a little wary at first and I'd probably resign if I felt the staff as a whole resented my appointment.
I sincerely apologize for going off on this tangent, I know this can be a touchy subject especially with staffers but hey, this thread is meant to discuss forum goals in general.
Sure, being a staff member is a goal for me...but it's really only an optional goal. I fully understand that it's likely that just achieving my primary goal of making friends can boost my confidence enough to know I can handle whatever life throws at me. Already, I'm much more confident in myself than I was in '04 or '07. I've learned so much not only from PC but from being online and interacting with people in general.
Maybe I am too harsh on myself...especially by setting such ambitious goals. But I can't help it. I have to challenge myself. It's just part of my character.
I cant help but want to better myself and learn and experience as much as I possibly can. I want to be able to live life without fearing fear. I want to be rid of my shyness and doubt in myself because I know that if I don't address the problem that it will only serve to hinder me.
I definitely commend everyone for not pulling any punches. So far everyone has been brutally honest with me for the most part, and it's made me a better person so far. I may be a little stubborn, especially when critique is delivered less than politely, but if they are indeed right I eventually see it and work to correct the problem, if one does indeed exist. I came to PC to live, learn and enjoy myself while doing so. So far I've been able to do all three for the most part. Sure, there's likely to be rough patches and disagreements and whatnot. That's just par for the course really. When it comes down to it, I really and honestly love PC.
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