I hope I'm seeing the bigger picture. Unless she was being a selfish liar because the chances of that are pretty high with her. Still, it's a lesson learned that not everyone repays the love, time and effort you put for them and the few that do, you should really value them and make them feel special as often as possible!
Also I'm really, really sorry to hear about that, that really does sound scary! I really wish I could help in any way! ;-;
I won't ask you to go into details now, but I will honestly be praying from the bottom of my heart that you feel better now, and your condition only gets better from this point! And yeah, mood swings suck so much, tell me about it! ;-;
As for me, IDK anymore. Embarrassing as it is, even if I claim to have moved on, I don't at times feel like I have moved on, maybe you can relate? Like I am doing something, and my mind just wanders off to thoughts about her, what was she thinking, why this happened, what did I do to deserve this... I feel like I didn't do anything wrong rather than vent out to her about feeling alone all the time, which again, she offered to talk about! So, IDK anymore, it's more like I am lying to myself half of the time and it's annoying ahaha!
Weird as it is, half the time I cry terribly, or sometimes I'm alone and just...start throwing punches in the air while being angry and crying, and the remaining half of the time is just me laughing at myself and being like, "What the hell was I thinking?" 😂
I'll be fine someday or the other though! That's what I hope, and maybe then I'll have the strength to do your dare then, because right now it would just feel weird since I just can't bring myself to like me LOL! I'm like the worst person I know ahaha! XD