Not at all to be honest with you. This has been the worst year I have ever had and having christmas is just going to bring back the memories and times that I really just don't want to think about. I wish I could just completely skip it and blank this year because I really don't want to remember it. I know what I'm having for christmas and there are going to be two people missing on that day for me that I really am not happy about. If you had asked me this at the start of the year, I would have been bouncing and thinking it would be the best christmas/year ever, but now I'm just completely against it.
Hopefully next year I'll be back to normal again, because I really do love christmas normally.