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Dear anons (yes, there are many of you),
I wish you would stop pressuring me into trying to do this, because you don't understand how much it terrifies me. It's not even that I'm a coward, but it's...something worse than that. It's hard to verbalize or even think about because it hurts. I've felt inadequate most of my life, and the idea of wanting something that can cause me a lot of pain and embarrassment is too great of a risk to take. It's not going to help me if I succeed, but instead it's going to make things worse when I fail. I hate failing more than anything else, which is why I can't do this. If I don't take the risk, then at least it won't make me hurt anymore than it already does.
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Dear anon,
I've been wanting to say this for a while, and I seem to be in a mood to spew my thoughts tonight. I thought we were friends a few years ago, since you would like to get lunch with me and some of my friends. But over the last couple years when I see you, you don't even say hi or look me in the eyes. I wish I could know why you are distancing yourself. I feel bad whenever I see you because you look so lonely, and I don't know if there's anything we can do to help.
I wish you would stop pressuring me into trying to do this, because you don't understand how much it terrifies me. It's not even that I'm a coward, but it's...something worse than that. It's hard to verbalize or even think about because it hurts. I've felt inadequate most of my life, and the idea of wanting something that can cause me a lot of pain and embarrassment is too great of a risk to take. It's not going to help me if I succeed, but instead it's going to make things worse when I fail. I hate failing more than anything else, which is why I can't do this. If I don't take the risk, then at least it won't make me hurt anymore than it already does.
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Dear anon,
I've been wanting to say this for a while, and I seem to be in a mood to spew my thoughts tonight. I thought we were friends a few years ago, since you would like to get lunch with me and some of my friends. But over the last couple years when I see you, you don't even say hi or look me in the eyes. I wish I could know why you are distancing yourself. I feel bad whenever I see you because you look so lonely, and I don't know if there's anything we can do to help.