#13
That was the most uncomfortable episode of the series to sit through. Subaru fucked things up. Big. Time.
Brief points of note:
Felt was epic. Glad to see her return in the series hasn't seen her changing her character completely. She's still the same lovable brat as before.
The duel was brutal.
The animation/art were on point. Especially the expressions.
Voice Acting was top tier.
Rom-ji's entrance and the result of it were unexpected. Reinhard planned it like a baws though wew.
Priscilla's jab at Emilia was a harsh one. That actually hurt. Ouch.
And Priscilla is apparently strong, too. It became apparent when she was totally ready to whoop Felt's ass and Reinhard had to intervene. :O
Subaru & Emilia
It wouldn't be an understatement to say that, albeit in a fit of rage and messed up state of mind, Subaru managed to completely decimate his relationship with Emilia that he's built up over the course of the series. Where he's coming from is something I can understand - totally - but that didn't make their argument any easier to listen to. Props to the Voice Actors for strong performances - their emotions really were bleeding through their voices. Each word carried a lot of weight. Great stuff.
Some people may feel that Subaru's totally in the wrong to feel "entitled" to Emilia's gratitude. Well, he's definitely in the wrong for putting things the way he did. Undeniably so. He broke a promise like it was the easiest thing to do, he went inside the palace and caused trouble for her, he insulted knights and declared himself as one and then got completely humiliated in the arena. Despite trying to go for "underhanded" tricks (at least that's what most people would see it as). As if that wasn't enough, he goes on a rant about how Emilia should totally feel indebted to her and how he is the one responsible for making everything right for her.
I mean, yeah, sure, we as viewers know that he's been through a lot. Deaths like the ones he's faced so far definitely don't seem like they wouldn't have a toll on his mental health. Signs of his mental instability were clearly visible in the Roswaal mansion when he was trying to act all "genki" while being sick to the stomach trying to put up that facade. But his mental issues didn't stop with Emilia's lap pillow and that lovely scene where he breaks down - no way are his issues going that easily. And that was plainly visible in his outburst this episode.
He's spent what may be months or longer with Emilia. And did so much while being put through so much pain and suffering. But after all that, the prospect of him losing the one and only anchor he has in this world - his only support in this unknown world - that's definitely scary. Sure, one can argue that he's got Ram, Rem, Felt (to a lesser degree) and even Reinhard (to an even lesser degree) as acquaintances and whatnot. But Emilia's the one that has had the strongest impact on him due to her being "his savior" in the initial loops. He sees her as a divine being who saved him when no one would in an entirely unknown world. And a person who needs him watching over her and protecting her at all times since he's indebted to her.
But to Emilia, it is all an unknown commodity - the experiences she's had with subaru in those other time loops and the time she's spent with her - that's all non-existent. Of course she wouldn't understand why he feels SO attached to her and is so overly reliant on putting himself in impossible situations just to be of use to Emilia. Of course she'd pin it down to him being selfish and doing it for himself - especially after she sees him break that promise so easily. Subaru definitely didn't give her any reason to trust him after that and there's too much that's unspoken for her to even grasp the kind of situation Subaru is in.
Overall, the witch's curse is a bitch. It is a total bitch. Him not being able to talk to her about the loops really, really screws up his chances of getting through to her. And the prospect of him losing her makes him try to guilt trip her while spouting crap that he probably never really meant in a fit of panic and desperation.
It'll be REALLY interesting to see how he mends his ties with her from now. As much as I wish he'd just kill himself to magically fix this issue, that'd be a cop out from a writing perspective. So I'd wanna see how they overcome this obstacle. But man, this is a big one. He really fucked up big time. Subaru you doofus. >_>