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Technically I'm gay (or rather, lesbian. But I'm somewhat averse to using that term to describe myself due to it having been used in a derogatory manner almost always when I was growing up.) But these days I wonder sometimes if I'm some shade of asexual since my desire to associate with pretty much everyone beyond good ol' platonic friendship has been pretty nonexistent for many years now. Probably not, though, since I did fall very hard for a female friend from ages 15-18... in spite of never doing anything about it, which was for the best. I suppose I've just mellowed as as I've grown older. I'm also closeted to all but my mother, and a single most trusted friend. (They did assume I was asexual before I came out to them. xD)
Whatever. I wouldn't say I'm involved at all with the LGBT+ community since this is such a small aspect of myself I barely even think about. For all I know, I may never even date anyone because though I've accepted this part of myself, the myriad of potential social consequences is still a legitimate fear of mine I may never come to terms with. But that's okay, because all I really need in life are a few good friends and my family for as long as they live. I do however wish I didn't have to deal with people, particularly guys... only guys actually, in real life that are romantically interested in me in spite of me showing clear signs I don't care about them in that manner. I'm totally cool being friends with anyone, but for many years now I just wish people would leave me the hell alone with their ulterior motives... I wonder how I'd even react if another girl legitimately flirted with me? Too bad people I meet in real life assume I'm straight probably... x'D
Whatever. I wouldn't say I'm involved at all with the LGBT+ community since this is such a small aspect of myself I barely even think about. For all I know, I may never even date anyone because though I've accepted this part of myself, the myriad of potential social consequences is still a legitimate fear of mine I may never come to terms with. But that's okay, because all I really need in life are a few good friends and my family for as long as they live. I do however wish I didn't have to deal with people, particularly guys... only guys actually, in real life that are romantically interested in me in spite of me showing clear signs I don't care about them in that manner. I'm totally cool being friends with anyone, but for many years now I just wish people would leave me the hell alone with their ulterior motives... I wonder how I'd even react if another girl legitimately flirted with me? Too bad people I meet in real life assume I'm straight probably... x'D
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