Your toughest moment

Alexander Nicholi

Alexander Nicholi

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    What was the most difficult thing for you (thus far) in your life?



    For me, I'd have to say coming off of my lithium, being dumped, and having my personality turn all shades of purple. I never thought I could feel as sad as I did, or as angry as I did. It was unimaginable dealing with those emotions, and on top of it being socially repulsed for it. It was bad enough to where I'd start suffocating as I cried, and breaking valuables when I was angry (stuff that was useful, and costly!). I doubt many could relate.

    I did not like it, but I got through it. I'm in the meadow after those woods now, so to speak.
     
    A family member becoming sick. I'm not close with my family but I care about them and it made me realize how much I depend on them as well.

    When I essentially became a hikikomori for a year I went through a really tough time too but I brought that on myself. The damage I caused to myself while being isolated for a year was far worse than whatever caused me to do it in the first place.

    Overall I wouldn't say I've had a tough life though so I don't want it to seem like I'm trying to make it come off that way.
     
    I had something traumatic happen to me when I was a child and it has stuck with me my entire lifetime. It's caused me to have problems in every aspect of my life from the time it occurred until a few months ago. I've just recently been able to move past it and no longer be affected by the depression that came with it.
     
    Faced depression
    Got home instruction
    During depression, my mom died
    Grandfather died soon after
    Then got evicted from childhood house
    Then my sister got taken by family services

    During that entire time, faced a lot of financial difficulty as a family.
    That was a tough series of unfortunate events.
     
    King Goodra said:
    Faced depression
    Got home instruction
    During depression, my mom died
    Grandfather died soon after
    Then got evicted from childhood house
    Then my sister got taken by family services

    During that entire time, faced a lot of financial difficulty as a family.
    That was a tough series of unfortunate events.
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    dat is absolutely horrible, i wuld never wish it on any1


    abandoned by thos whom i loved and cared fer (recent)
    backstabbed by many
    hated by few
    left a fourm, from disrespect of dyslexics
     
    when my grandfather died. he is a really wise man.
     
    There has been a couple instances, but the one and a half year long major episode of depression was probably the hardest to overcome, personally. At the time, I had not told anyone, family nor friends, about what I was struggling through as to not be a burden to them. I took it upon myself to bear the entire burden on my shoulders instead of troubling others meanwhile they assumed everything was okay. Not to mention that I lived away from home so that made it slightly harder to deal with. I was completely out of my element at the time. Never had I imagined that I'd be having suicidal thoughts on a daily basis and wondered what life would have been like for others had I not existed.

    Thankfully I managed to pull through. I speak openly about that stint to anyone who is comfortable with discussing it. It was definitely a personal learning experience, one that I will look back on and say I am happier than I've ever been since then.

    I've had both mental and physical issues, the latter came in the form of an emergency operation that was needed to remove an ovary when I was 11 years old. I remember the details vividly and the date makes it so much easier to keep track of; it was also the day the catastrophic Indian Ocean earthquake and tsunami incident happened. So I spent Christmas that year in the hospital recovering. I was scared for my life, I didn't know what else to think since I was so young. Could not comprehend what was happening at the time and why.
     
    My cousin's newborn baby was taken away from her 3 years ago. The funeral was nothing like I have ever experienced before and is something I never want to experience ever, ever again.
     
    learning to love and value myself has probably been the most difficult. I think I was depressed for a very long time and that lead to a lot of social anxiety and misconceptions about myself. Even today I still work on them, but it's no longer a major problem in my life, just something I keep up with.

    besides that weight loss and being cheated on
     
    I donnu man, I've had siblings die, I've had friends die, I grew up without a father, and yet I still feel like the hardest thing is being abandoned by someone. I mean if someone dies, well they're gone forever yaknow, nothing I can do about it. It's easy for me to get over that. But when someone leaves your life forever but they're still around, damn. I've had some friends, awesome friends, friends I'd fucking die for just disappear. Shit's a trip man
     
    My family member/best friend being killed by a doctor overdosing him on anesthesia. This was one of the hardest things to go through still kind of is kinda miss him telling me "how the hell do you find all the hot girls." The game is hard and he thought it was really easy for me I only played the game to find love when really the game just liked screwing me over in the end.
     
    I have had a real think about this and I can honestly say that I have not had a moment in my life that was difficult enough to even register for this thread.

    I had both my cats die within a month of each other... that was pretty hard, but it wasn't traumatic or anything, I got over it.

    My grandfather died last June but I hadn't seen him in like 8 years so I wasn't all that sad and he'd had a long battle with Parkinson's Disease so really he was better off for it by the end. Watching my Dad cry and Mum getting up to comfort him while he gave the eulogy was difficult to watch, but again, it wouldnt even register as a Toughest Moment.

    I'm gay and even my coming out story isn't dramatic.

    Damn son my life has been dull. In this context that's a good thing but by my age I should have some Severe Emotional Trauma That Has Fucked Me Up, and I don't.
     
    My life has pretty much always been a struggle because of me having autism, but these were some notable ones worth mentioning.

    My brother dropping out of school... it didn't have any immediate effect on how bad my life was going to get, but in recent months the damage really started to show, and he's been nothing but hell since. This year would have been his final year in high school had he not done this, and he'll be having a hard time even landing a spot in any post-school education program.

    I had also suffered depression and once tried to inflict self-harm, mainly because of how much I can't tolerate the demanding nature and aggressiveness of my entire family. One of my self-harm attempts caused me to crack a big hole in our plaster wall. It did get fixed, but it's like too easy to see where the hole was.

    Spending three nights in hospital last August after surgery to remove a lump on my breast (it wasn't cancer, but it's from a nasty skin condition that I suffer) and it was hard for me because I can't stand the hospital food and the homesickness that I suffer.

    Yeah, I'm someone who goes through so much pain... it's like unbelievable.
     
    I'd have to say being homeless was my hardest struggle, especially seeing how my siblings always got tons of help, but when I needed it, I got a bunch of twiddling thumbs and excuses. Did I forgive them? Eventually. I've long accepted the fact that my brother and sister are legitimately loved more. The only person who has had an unwavering loyalty to me is my fiancé and frankly, I wouldn't even be here if it weren't for him. He's pretty much saved my life and he deserves the world from me.
     
    College bro.
     
    I would have to say getting through high school. The reason is because I struggled a lot with schoolwork. I had teachers pressuring me so bad. They didn't really quite understand my needs at all. So, I just had an overall challenge passing through. I was glad to have FINALLY graduated in 2008. It's something that has made me swear not to go to college too. Mostly because my needs are far to great for me to even try. I just have a feeling I wouldn't be able to manage it.

    Also, another semi-tough moment was dealing with fakes. I had some fake j-rocker friends who claimed they were real. I was always dealing with drama. I mean we're talking soap opera drama here. It was literally so bad that I was falling deep into depression and started self-harming. I just couldn't deal with the stress of all their things. The hardest thing for me at first was being force to let them go after all of the things I did for them. It was as if they had literally fucking slapped me in the face and slammed the door on me. It hurt badly. I guess in a way, I kind of expected it would fall to pieces once I found out my ex immaturely left Facebook without even telling me our relationship was over. It still hurt because these guys were my only friends at the time. You can only imagine the trauma this gave me. It took me two years alone just to get over them. TWO YEARS. D:
     
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    all of those were hard times for me, but eh whatever man life goes on. :I
     
    My Mother got Sick with a very Dangerous Disease and it even led to hospitalisation.Which Makes me feel deppressed and deeply saddened.I was Feeling useless to Others even after my mother recovery It takes me about One Year to get Over My Depression.It was Really A very Hard time for Me.But Now I believe That:
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