It's ok, hey at least you got to have fun traveling. I've always wanted to travel, when i become older and financially independent there's definitely places I have in mind. I've always wanted to see vermont, the trees look so pretty. I've not left the U.S left. My mother qualifies for citizenship in ireland, but hasn't got around to taking it up.
It's strange, like...i can totally rationalize that it's "just a brief pinch, it won't hurt that bad". But it doesn't matter, anxiety just takes over. Yeah I hope someday I can handle them better. I separate anxiety from nervousness, when i get anxious it's like my body is entering a state of shock and I can't think clearly. It didn't develop until a few years ago, I didn't know what was happening or what anxiety was. When I learned about it and got diagnosed, it got wayyyyy easier.
I'm not a fan of tea, but maybe I just haven't tried 'enough' of it to form an opinion. What exactly is in fast foods? (since you mentioned not liking the stuff in them). Yeah crazy thing is dropping soda was super easy for me. I didn't even do it on purpose. I just decided "one a day" would taste better. Eventually the 'one per day' stopped and I simply didn't feel like drinking that stuff. I never drink caffeine. Might try coffee someday. buuut caffeine isn't good for anxiety disorders, will see how it goes.
also have you seen any hippos yet? I'm fascinated with animals