When I moved from primary to secondary education, I lost a lot of my friends. This was fairly uneventful, as I managed to integrate myself with people in my "form", however, they got fairly boring over time, becoming increasingly invested in mobile gaming.
After leaving that group, I ended up drifting between others, but I was never able to stay in a group for whatever reason. There was one that I managed to stay in for a while. Everyone there was nice & treated me fine. However, one person moved away, and the group just... collapsed.
It didn't take me long to befriend someone after that. For the purposes of this, let's call then Nate. Nate was an amazing friend at the start. I started off only being friends with him, but I ended up positioning myself with his other friends (a large group ~30). It was all going swimmingly, Nate still being my closest friend, possibly of all time. I finally plucked up the courage to ask to meet outside of school, but he came up with some shitty excuse. Being na?ve as I was I believed him.
It continued much the same after that, he'd make up stories about relatives dying, that were false to get out of meeting me. Of course I believed him, despite the evidence. As I grew ever closer to him though, something changed, he gradually grew more distant to me. When I asked if I'd done anything wrong, Nate replied "Shut the fuck up or I'll punch your fat face in". Acting on emotion, I removed his water bottle from his bag and put it in a bin (diabolical, right). I made several events to rekindle our friendship but they were met with ignorance or "You're a prick". While I still spent time with his other friends, things just weren't the same. Around a year ago, I was contacted by the head of year, who informed me that Nate had made several complaints regarding me bullying him, and that unless I stayed away from him and anyone he was friends with, there'd be serious consequences.
so here i am friendless, and with no confidence to go to school