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    how often do you dwell on the past? it doesn't necessarily have to be negative, by the way. you can reflect on your history without it having negative connotations!

    in reverse: how much time do you spend thinking about your future? what do you think about? do you worry about it?
     
    I dwell on the past and think about the future both quite a lot actually. There's a lot of really pleasant memories I often find myself drifting back to at random moments as well as a lot of negative ones that I still find myself questioning. Maybe I'm just a nostalgic person?

    As for the future, I like to think about the positive futures that could lay before me but mostly I just do this to gloss over my concerns I think.
     
    Admittedly I tend to dwell on the past a lot because a lot of stuff happened in my past that hurt me, or things I did that I'm not proud of.
    But I've been learning to just let it go, I can't change the past and I can't let it consume me.

    About the future, I am afraid for the future a bit, because I don't really have any plans or anything.
     
    I dwell on my past quite a bit. Kinda have to, my sister is living my past. I try not to think about the negative parts of my life (more than I already am forced to, anyway), but I certainly do wish that I could relive some of my past so I could savor it more.

    I'm quite afraid of my future. The way things are going now, it's hard to see a positive outcome. I mean, I know where I want to go in life, it's just that I'm terrified of the fact I don't have the ability to do it, nor will other people help me.
     
    I think I have a lot in my past that I've forgotten because I've chosen to; when I think back, my childhood at a glance seems blissful and awesome because I only bother looking at the good parts.

    Looking forward is much more exciting. If all goes well, there's a seeker there, after all. <3
     
    I don't like thinking about the past or the future. Past is full of mistakes, future is full of worries. But I do get reminded often of the past and I get these pangs of embarrassment and shame and self-reproach because I only seem to remember the bad stuff and all the good things are fuzzy.
     
    I've mostly stopped feeling bad about bad past events. I think of more funny moments now. But overall I find myself often thinking about the future now. Mostly about things I want to do/experience
     
    I've been dwelling on the past a lot lately. Feels like that's all I've done in my 20's is talk about my memories as a kid and a teen. And now even my early 20's lol...which I'm technically still in. I don't know why I'm so reminiscent. I guess I have more regrets than I realized.
     
    i think about the past too much but i've been doing somewhat better at that. the future, however, i still think about waaay too much. it's so difficult for me to live in the moment, but i think that has to do with a) the classes im taking this year and b) how excited i am for the future. still, it's not a good thing. i do a lot of speculation in my mind. i think about things i want to happen so often that sometimes i literally forget to do them when it actually happens. sometimes, when it comes to a girl, it's bc im too shy/nervous, but other times it's me just being too caught up in the future
     
    I try not to dwell not the past because it is simply a distraction from the future and present. It also brings up feelings of regret and I already keep a mental note of mistakes not to repeat, so its not really necessary.

    However, I have been reminiscing recently about my elementary school days. Boy were those great years. I enjoy increased workloads and responsibilities, but I took for granted the freedom from obligations.

    I should really apply those sentiments to my life now. Just take it a step at a time and not worry too much. Sure, I have obligations now. But as an adult I will have many more- a job that i will have to depend on instead of just for saving/spending money, paying taxes and healthcare and rent and crap, living on my own, etc.

    I look forward to adulthood, but at the same time, I know I shouldn't.
     
    I've been dwelling in the past for quite some time recently. I've actually got an incredibly infamous past over at BMGf, and the drop of my old username can garner quite the surprising reactions from many individuals there (including the current head admin, assuming I'm not mistaken over who they are). While I'm apologetic to the nth degree, I don't think I can reconnect with anyone from back then, at this point. So I think I'll just lead my happy, sleepy life here from here on out... (even if I don't have people to talk to outside of these threads ; ^; )

    As for the future, it's stagnant online. But irl, it's incredibly grim with near-zero chances of looking up. So... there's that.
     
    The future part scares me the most than the past. The past is something I tend to look back on because I'd like to use some of the experience from it and use it to get through the present.

    Especially since the fact that I have finished college, I moved in with the guy whom I've been dating for a year and a half now, and right now some things in the future are currently uncertain. There's actually more "what if's" rather than "oh we're doing this". Quite honestly, I was more focused on the present moment rather than taking the time to think of the future. And it's scary to think about it.
     
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