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Dear Anonymous,
So yeah I'm useless. I'm pretty sure, in fact I'm 99% sure I'll fail this unit, which just annoys me more, making me wonder whether I'm good or not. I'm trying and there's literally nothing I can do unless I can get the file here. It'll already take over 10 hours to do the whole thing anyways, and with everything due so soon, ugh. I need to start on the other assignment but I'm honestly not in the mood now. I want to be able to say that it's all on my mind but no, I can't, and I don't know why either. That isn't the only thing, there's something else that's been on my mind lately and I really don't like myself for it. I just want it to go away, I want it all to go away. I'm not sure how I'll go in the future, I'm sure I could do much better if I did more, but meh, even when I do my best I still suck, so why try is basically my mindset. I know that's bad and all, but hey that's how I'm seeing my life turn out lately. Then there's driving... it makes me feel useless that I can't remember simple things and because of that I'm probably never going to be able to take the test. I don't know if it'd all be better if you were here, but it would be something at least. On the other hand, there's one other way to make me feel better currently but I feel worse for knowing that. I don't want that, I just want you and everyone like, all the time. But no, I feel like I'm alone right now sorta, and that with this I'm only going to do what I'm meant to do not what I want to do. I want to shape what I think my life will be like, but idk, I guess I can defy that occasionally but... maybe that's what destiny really was. I'm sorry I'm not better, even though you probably wouldn't know half of the worst parts I just want to escape and I'm going to make it worse for me. I want to be who I was growing up. I don't know where I went wrong.
Dear Anonymous,
I find that sad and I won't mention it but I really agree, I just idk I'd rather not go through any of this and just... don't know. I could live without, can't live with it, and so on. My fault in the first place for caring. I should've grown up a long time ago, but I'll be like this forever, no matter how old I am. That's the sad part, for me at least. I know how you feel, completely. Which probably makes it not so great.
Dear Anonymous,
Please.
Dear Anonymous,
I want to care what I want to care about.
So yeah I'm useless. I'm pretty sure, in fact I'm 99% sure I'll fail this unit, which just annoys me more, making me wonder whether I'm good or not. I'm trying and there's literally nothing I can do unless I can get the file here. It'll already take over 10 hours to do the whole thing anyways, and with everything due so soon, ugh. I need to start on the other assignment but I'm honestly not in the mood now. I want to be able to say that it's all on my mind but no, I can't, and I don't know why either. That isn't the only thing, there's something else that's been on my mind lately and I really don't like myself for it. I just want it to go away, I want it all to go away. I'm not sure how I'll go in the future, I'm sure I could do much better if I did more, but meh, even when I do my best I still suck, so why try is basically my mindset. I know that's bad and all, but hey that's how I'm seeing my life turn out lately. Then there's driving... it makes me feel useless that I can't remember simple things and because of that I'm probably never going to be able to take the test. I don't know if it'd all be better if you were here, but it would be something at least. On the other hand, there's one other way to make me feel better currently but I feel worse for knowing that. I don't want that, I just want you and everyone like, all the time. But no, I feel like I'm alone right now sorta, and that with this I'm only going to do what I'm meant to do not what I want to do. I want to shape what I think my life will be like, but idk, I guess I can defy that occasionally but... maybe that's what destiny really was. I'm sorry I'm not better, even though you probably wouldn't know half of the worst parts I just want to escape and I'm going to make it worse for me. I want to be who I was growing up. I don't know where I went wrong.
Dear Anonymous,
I find that sad and I won't mention it but I really agree, I just idk I'd rather not go through any of this and just... don't know. I could live without, can't live with it, and so on. My fault in the first place for caring. I should've grown up a long time ago, but I'll be like this forever, no matter how old I am. That's the sad part, for me at least. I know how you feel, completely. Which probably makes it not so great.
Dear Anonymous,
Please.
Dear Anonymous,
I want to care what I want to care about.