I let my feelings get bottled up inside me because...I get really scared of saying them to the guys that I liked/had a crush on. I was too scared of the outcome. In 7th grade I had a crush on an 8th grader, and without thinking I went up to the guy to tell him that I liked him...but later on it turned out that he already had a girlfriend and told me that I was ugly for him. Shot down in an instant. Then 8th grade came and I had a crush on a really awesome guy friend, he ALSO had a girlfriend as I spilled him his feelings. Shot down as well. 9th grade came, I was falling for a cute guy in English class, and I wrote him a love letter...he wanted to be friends first though, in which I accepted. Four years later he ended up being my first boyfriend.
Due to the above, with every guy I developed feelings with, I always keep my emotions to myself because I'm too scared. I was mostly shot down by guys, and was broken hearted. It was the worst feeling yet because I felt that I wasn't good enough.
I think I took the risk and "went for it" when my current bf told me that he liked me via text, and all the bottled-up emotions I had for the guy just....exploded like a soda bottle that was shaken up lmao. Of course, I said yes! I was pretty happy :)
It's understandable that it could be anxious at first, but if you are feeling it towards that other person, go for it. It's an opportunity you will regret missing for the rest of your life.