I don't know how to respond to this.
I d like myself. When I was ounger, I didn't looked good and I was overweight. So now, as I look today, I am happy!!
My problem is my identity. Like, I don't really know who I am.
And when I do retrospection, I don't like how I was before, like the things I said or the things I did.
Now, I do no like how awkward I can be XD
And people around me can't believe how awful I think I am. I don't think I am a really good person. I am selfish, and I know it. I love to help others, but I don't have the energy to do it. Since I am young, I want to go away, alone, and live my little life all by myself.
I don't know if any of you have watched the show Bojack Horseman, but this resume my thoughts about myself. Not liking the way I am, but loving it in the same time. Not knowing what I do with my life, identity crisis. Or like the character Diane, thinking I was someone, but realizing that I am not who I though I was.
I think my problem is that I really know who I was in highscool and I know I am not this girl anymore. I don't know who I am, and I know I won't ever be like my teenages years. But I miss these years.
I think I lost myself when a girl wh I was in highscool with (and we are from a little place), she didn't remember my name. I realize how invisible I was. The years I thought I was the best version of my was invisible. A lot of people don't remmeber my name or don't see me, and that suck.
Anyway, that's the 20s crisis and I know it hehe, I know I am not alone feeling this way. Someday, I will find myself.