Dear Anonymous,
Should I break up?
I hate to ask it
But things are out of hand for me now
I do not log into this forum anymore (due to personal reasons). But this one question bugged me so much, I needed to post it somewhere. So, here I am!
Some of you may know from my old post how my life with my fiance is.
If not- well, we are in a LDR and he is so busy (working from 5AM to 10PM) that he literally cannot text me and is too tired for much anything else.
Always too busy
We don't see, call or even, text each other (except calling on Sundays for alloted 10 mins)
I used to call him every weekend and he used to be happy about it
And nowadays, he just speaks to me with an "angry" tone as if something is frustrating him and is going wrong... and if I ask him why he is angry, he says it's just work.
But I feel very uncomfortable about it
Like, I know he is trying to say something... His anger could mean a lot more than just work
I agree work is busy
But I feel he cannot accept me for who I am anymore...
Maybe I am not what he dreamed of?
So sad if that's how immature his imagination is.
But, unfortunately, if that is how it is. Then, I can't change it
Seeing the uncalled for LDR circumstances, I had wished for us to break up three years ago and we didn't because we were just so much in love and it made us both cry for a long time...
I was just so confused and we were both so broken without each other, we got back.
Things have been sooo down the lane after that
He got busier and busier
And now, it is his final semester.
So, the work load is even worse.
It will be so till March+ 2017 and such...
I can take it if our love is true
But I get the feeling it is not anymore...
Distance tore us apart?
Then we were never meant to be, huh?
Maybe it was all about control or immaturity or hormones, but hardly ever love
I have no idea what to do
But breaking up seems like a good choice right now (even though my mind says I may exaggerating things)
He will come back begging as always and I will cry too
But isn't that super unhealthy?
I don't want to be that person who looks like she is only living on sending threats if she doesn't get things her way
I'm not like that at all
Even if circumstances have pushed me, I could never do that.
And I do not want him back
But I keep waiting before making this move
I keep giving him a second chance /_\ (as I cry myself to sleep every night)